2021 In Review

A year has always felt impossibly long. Something that happens in January and something that happens in December have always felt like they were on opposite ends of an infinite divide. This was even more true when I was a child and the endless expanse of a summer vacation felt like an epoch. But even as an adult I’ve never really felt like all 12 months of a year hang together in a cohesive way.

That is, until this year. For some reason my year felt like a cohesive unit. It certainly had distinct phases, which I’ll get into below, but I’m struck by how it felt like an extremely contained, and brief, moment of time. Perhaps I’m just getting old and experiencing the realities of math and physics (each year representing a smaller percentage of my overall consciousness as I age). I think it might also have something to do with the fact that I’ve now officially gone an entire year using my Week/Month/Trimester Review and Planning rhythm. This is also my second full year of highly detailed Weekly personal metrics saved in a spreadsheet every Sunday afternoon. The end result is a portfolio of artifacts that can be consumed over a cup of coffee that clearly and discretely contain the entirety of my yearly experience.

Like usual, I’m going to resist my nerd urges to just dump a bunch of data from my various personal quantification efforts for the past year (if you care about that, you can see that here). Instead, here’s my best take at a relatively brief narrative review of my 2021 and what I’m looking forward to in 2022.

Phase 1 (January - July): Burnout

I started the year burned out and only got crispier from there. I had been on the same client engagement since early 2019 and was unsuccessful in figuring out a way to keep being jazzed about it. The project itself was radically successful, but I was feeling more and more like an increasingly annoyed fly on the wall rather than an active, optimistic, and effective member of the team. One of the changes I had made late in 2020 was to start a smaller engagement under the umbrella of our larger project. This let me dive into a new part of the organization and operate as a team of one and for a little while it was exciting and engaging. I was laying the ground work with my key stakeholders to hopefully expand the project into something more impactful (and more in my wheelhouse) and all the signals I was getting indicated this was extremely likely to happen. And then, at the end of a meeting at the end of March, my key client, an extremely senior executive, announced he was leaving the company to pursue new opportunities. In an instant, 5 months of hard work flew out the window and with it, the last vestiges of my motivation.

My nearly two and a half year involvement with the project came to a close, with a whimper, in April. I could easily write a whole article about the experience of starting, growing, and ultimately crashing out of this project. 

I knew I needed a substantial break before I started anything new. I didn’t want to quit my job, because I knew my negative feelings toward it were more a function of my extreme burnout than anything else, but it was definitely on the table. Instead of taking that drastic action I decided to investigate what it would look like for The Ready to instantiate a Sabbatical Policy. Assuming we adopted it, my plan was to immediately partake in it.

Luckily, that’s what happened. By the middle of May I had researched, written, and proposed it to the company. By the end of May it has successfully made its way through our participatory governance process and became an official policy of The Ready. I immediately invoked it and scheduled the start of my 4 month sabbatical for the beginning of July.

Phase 2 (July - October): Sabbatical

If Phase 1 was the darkest night, then Phase 2 was the brightest day. I’m somewhat loathe to rehash the entire sabbatical because I don’t think we have the time or space for me to truly do it justice in this article and I happened to do a pretty good job capturing it as it happened.

So, let’s do this montage style. I’ll momentarily drop the coherent narrative and instead flash a few of the key moments across the screen:

• Spending a week in Cape Cod with my fiancee. Seafood for every meal. Kayaking close enough to a seal to say hello.

• Seeing my grandparents in Kentucky for what turned out to be the last time before my Grandpa Bill passed away in October.

• Going to Buffalo (twice!) for family weddings (who knew Buffalo was such a sought after destination locale?)

• Starting salsa lessons with my fiancee.

• Buying a used road bike and exploring the cycling paths in Northern Virginia — which then led me to getting interested in triathlon and starting to work with a coach

• Another trip to Cape Cod, this one shortened by Hurricane Henri

• Working on my brother’s farm in TN for a week. Learning the ins and outs of being a small-scale farmer while experiencing the true misery of August in Tennessee.

• Getting Lasik eye surgery after nearly three decades of wearing glasses and contacts

• Spending a long weekend in rural Pennsylvania with all four of my younger brothers for our second annual Brothers’ Weekend

In between these highlights was a ton of time spent reading and not thinking about work at all (at least at first). However, as the sabbatical started to wind down I noticed myself feeling excited to dive back into work. The feelings that always led me to describe my work at The Ready as my dream job started to re-emerge and by the time I went to sleep for the last time as a man on sabbatical, I couldn’t wait for morning to come so I could rejoin my colleagues in changing how the world works.

Phase 3: Re-Entry (November & December)

Phase 3, which I’m still decidedly in the midst of, was all about re-entering the world of work. In my first two weeks back I had lined up three workshops (one of which was in California) and an advisory project, so I was immediately thrown back into the deep end. Luckily, I still remembered how to do this whole consultant thing. In my third week back The Ready finally had its first in-person retreat since the beginning of the pandemic. For the first time in well over a year I was finally getting to see my colleagues face-to-face; many of them for the very first time! 

At the retreat we decided to kick off an initiative all about figuring out what is going on with web3 and Decentralized Autonomous Organizations. My colleagues kindly nominated me to co-steward that initiative and that’s what I’ve been doing ever since. I’m spending the vast majority of my time every day learning about this emerging space and figuring out how The Ready can best contribute to it. It’s incredibly fun, incredibly challenging, and the perfect thing for me to be working on after 6 years of pretty exhausting client-facing work. I’m excited that The Ready is exploring non-consulting ways to achieve our purpose and it has been a lot of fun to be on the leading edge of that. 

Thinking About 2022 and Beyond

As I mentioned before, I do my big reflection and planning sessions every four months. I really love that cadence but it does kind of make the third trimester of every year a little awkward. I’m not due for a big think on my goals, projects, and other endeavors until the end of February. However, there’s something about the end of the calendar year that makes it feel like a natural time to do a bit of pausing and reflecting. I’m not big on detailed plans anyway, so here’s a few things I’m looking forward to in 2022.

I’m getting married to my best friend at the end of May in beautiful Naples, Florida. Hopefully the COVID situation lets up before then so we can have an amazing time celebrating with our friends and family. Later in the summer we’ll be having a celebration in Michigan for those members of my family who can’t make the trek to Florida. In September we hope to take a honeymoon in Europe that concludes with Emily’s brother’s wedding in Spain.

As I mentioned above, during my sabbatical I got curious about training for triathlons and have been working with a coach and training consistently since the end of August. I’ve signed up for my first three triathlons in 2022. In April I’ll be doing a sprint triathlon, in June I’ll be doing an Olympic distance triathlon, and in early September I’ll be going for a half-Ironman distance triathlon. I’ve found a lot of joy in pushing myself to get better across these three sports and I can’t wait to test myself in a race environment.

Finally, I intend to consume far more art than I ever have before in 2022. I’ve read almost nothing except non-fiction since I graduated from college in 2009. I ramped up my consumption of non-fiction material even more when I started graduate school in 2011 and even higher once again when I started working at The Ready in 2015. Every time I’ve put myself in a situation where I’m not sure if I can handle the workload or felt like I didn’t have the experience I needed to be able to hack it, I turned to books and my ability to read and learn quickly to save me. It has worked pretty well to this point. But I think I’m ready to take my foot off the gas a little bit. I’ve let the part of me that loves stories and games and art atrophy too much. I don’t know what exactly I’m going to do to honor this intention other than reading more fiction, but it’s a challenge I’m excited to figure out.

An Org Designer in the Land of the DAOs

Thoughts on starting fresh in a new domain, keeping a beginner’s mind, and looking to make an impact

Photo by Eric Krull on Unsplash

The Ready exists to change how the world works — to realize a more adaptive, equitable, meaningful, and human way of working. This has meant partnering with some of the world’s largest and most well-known organizations as they strive to remove decades of organizational debt to become better versions of themselves. It has also meant partnering with many smaller and lesser-known organizations who want to develop organizational operating systems that help them retain their nimbleness even as they scale. Not content to swoop in with broad proclamations or sexy PowerPoint slides, we’ve been working side-by-side with courageous leaders and teams who want to actually try new ways of working and are willing to get uncomfortable doing so.

Six years later we’re striving to keep our noses and brains firmly planted to the edge of the future of work. It’s important that we don’t grow complacent in the face of the success we’ve had so far. We work with too many clients who are on the downslope of influence and success after losing sight of the future. What might be next for us? Where are our blind spots? Where are the interesting things happening in the future of work that we aren’t involved with, or even necessarily understand, yet?

It’s impossible to be a future of work thinker and organizational practitioner without hearing about “web3” and “DAOs” over the past few months. As a company, we decided that we needed to get smart about this movement — and fast. It would be a complete dereliction of duty to ourselves, our current clients, and our future clients if we didn’t work hard to understand what’s happening in the world of web3. So, that’s what we’re doing.

Specifically, a colleague and I have committed to spending the vast majority of our time learning about, joining, and contributing to DAOs. The only way to have an informed point of view of this space is to participate. Behind this participation are a handful of foundational questions that we as a company who cares deeply about making the world a better place need to have conviction about:

• Are DAOs and web3 here to stay? Are we just dancing on the edge of an ephemeral bubble or is this the frontier of something important?

• To what extent do DAOs offer a framework for more equitable, adaptive, and human ways of working?

• Assuming every DAOs is not inherently positive in every circumstance, how can we encourage them to evolve in better ways? What role can a company with our values have in making sure the next system doesn’t simply recreate the worst parts of the current system?

• What aspects of self-management and new ways of working are DAOs unnecessarily re-creating from scratch? What roadblocks can we help them steer around as experienced practitioners who have been wrestling with many of these same ideas for a long time?

• What can we learn from what current DAOs are doing and trying that is actually useful to bring to our more traditional organization clients? What bidirectional learning between the “old world” and the “new world” can we facilitate?

• How can we help DAOs get better at all the messy “human stuff” that cannot be abstracted away by technological innovations and always emerges when human beings come together to solve problems (whether there’s a blockchain involved or not)?

• What do we need to understand about web3 and DAOs in order to help legacy organizations effectively bridge their current reality into one where DAOs and other blockchain-enabled approaches become a larger part of their internal and external ecosystems? What do we need to know to advocate for this when it makes sense and to caution against it when it doesn’t make sense?

I’m sure I’ll look at this list of questions six years from now and shake my head at the naïveté of some of them while simultaneously being impressed with how prescient some of them ended up being (it’s definitely something I’ve done before). Either way, the only way you become fortunate enough to look back at your previous work and cringe is by taking the first step to actually put it out there right now.

Perhaps even more important than articulating what we need to do to start figuring out this world is articulating a few things that we don’t need to do. We don’t need to swoop into an ecosystem that has existed for years and act like it’s brand new. We don’t need to bust in the front door and start offering a bunch of advice and platitudes about how things should or could be different than they are right now. We don’t need to come in and immediately impose our own view of the world, as enlightened as we like to think it is, into a context where others have been doing a lot of hard work for a long time.

Instead, we are trying to do a few things:

First is to simply learn as quickly and as deeply as possible. Web3 is notoriously difficult to grok for the non-technical and onboarding practically, and conceptually, requires serious effort. This has been my work over the past few weeks. Reading everything, watching everything, joining Twitter Spaces, watching videos, lurking in Discords, taking notes and thinking thinking thinking.

The trick, especially for someone like me who truly enjoys the solitude and individual experience of learning on my own, is to not get stuck in this posture. I will never feel like I learn or understand “enough.” There is always more to learn and if I wait for perfect understanding I will never move beyond the lurking and learning stage. Instead, I’m trying to remain in a learning posture while also engaging in small ways with the movement I’m learning about. It’s about making small connections between what I’m seeing in web3 and what I’ve learned and experienced as a progressive organizational practitioner over the past six years. It’s replying to Tweets, it’s writing my own threads trying to articulate things I’m noticing, and it’s about asking more questions than making declarative statements about how things are.

Next, and I hope to gradually transition to this phase soon, is identifying specific pain points and tensions in DAOs where I’ve cultivated relationships and offer my expertise in service of solving those challenges. In some cases I think the things we do with our current clients will translate extremely well to DAOs. In other cases, I think we will need to innovate new tools, practices, and processes that are truly custom designed for the unique DAO context. We will inevitably co-create these with other folks — probably many we haven’t met yet — who are bringing shared values and principles to this work, too.

After that the future gets increasingly murky. How does our work with DAOs and the people who do that work at The Ready interface with the rest of our organization? Should The Ready itself create a DAO that brings together progressive org designers and other practitioners? How can we do what we’ve done in the world of regular organizations with DAOs? Murky, murky, murky — but exciting.

For now, it’s back to listening, learning, provoking, and looking for opportunities of helpfulness. Let’s change how the world — and DAOs — work. Let’s make them the most adaptive, equitable, meaningful, and human they can possibly be and not unnecessarily carry over the assumptions, practices, and ways of working that have made traditional organizations so detrimental to so many people.

This article originally appeared on The Ready’s Mirror publication.

2021 State of the Tools

Most years (2017, 2018, 2019) I like to take a look back at the tools I found myself using and reflect on the extent to which I’m satisfied with them. While it’s certainly a good practice to be deliberate with the tools I choose to learn and use, this is also my attempt to get my tool stack feeling as solid as possible before heading into the next year so I don’t waste my time fiddling with it later.

A few general thoughts, before diving into a more detailed breakdown:

As I mentioned a few weeks ago, I’ve been leaning into not replacing my core technology as frequently as I have in the past. That means I successfully made it through the most dangerous time of the year for an Apple fan, the fall product releases, without replacing anything in my setup. To be clear, I’m not exactly using ancient gear here (M1 MacBook Air, iPhone 12 Pro Plus, Apple Watch Series 6) but I’m not the absolute bleeding edge, either. That feels right for where I am in my life right now. My hardware is not a bottleneck in my productivity in any way and while it’s fun to have the latest and greatest, I’d rather focus on the work I can accomplish with the tools rather than the tools themselves.

I gave away my iPad Pro to a family member early in the year and haven’t replaced it. That’s partly because Apple hasn’t released a new iPad Pro that felt like enough of an update to justify buying it. At this point, if I’m going to get a new iPad Pro I should probably just wait for whatever the new one will be. Considering my overall trajectory of reducing  and simplifying my hardware stack wherever possible, do I even need an iPad? The past year is telling me that I obviously don’t. We’ll see…

With those preliminary thoughts out of the way, let’s dive into an area by area breakdown of what I’m using and how I’m feeling about it.

Hardware

• Apple wireless keyboard & mouse (old)

• Kindle Oasis (2018)

• HPZ 27” External Monitor (2019)

• Logitech Webcam (2019) & Blue Yeti mic on a boom (2019)

• AirPods Pro (2019)

• M1 MacBook Air (2020)

• Apple Watch Series 6 Cellular (2020)

• AirPods Max (2020)

• iPhone 12 Pro Plus (2021)

Nothing about this needs to change in 2022. I hope nothing breaks and I can just go through the entirety of next year with this exact setup.

Browser

Most of the year, as it has been basically every year I’ve done this, my browser across all devices has been Safari. It’s hard to beat Safari for integration with the operating system, privacy, and overall speed. Sure, every once in a while I hit some sort of weird wrinkle on a website and need to fire up my backup installation of Chrome, but 99% of the time Safari is what I reach for to surf the web. That is, however, until the past couple weeks.

Recently my work has taken me into the world of crypto and one of the first things I learned is that Safari couldn’t be my daily driver and also my default crypto browser. So, it looks like I’m going to be splitting time between Chrome on macOS and Safari on iOS (for now). I’ll probably end up trying Chrome as my default on iOS sometime soon, just to see if having it be the same everywhere is worth it.

Previous Years

• 2017: Safari

• 2018: Safari

• 2019: Safari

Music

Spotify and Apple Music have been locked in a pretty even battle for my attention for the entirety of the time they’ve co-existed. I’d go for a few months using Apple Music (whose design and UX I tend to prefer) and then I’d switch to Spotify (whose recommendations are far better). This year, for the first time in a long time, I’ve been almost entirely in the Spotify camp. A major sign that things have gotten more stable with my Spotify usage is that I find myself looking forward to the Discover Weekly playlist update every Monday. I think Spotify is likely here to stay.

Previous Years

• 2017: Apple Music/Spotify

• 2018: Apple Music

• 2019: Spotify

Podcasts

I’ve been all in on Overcast basically since the day it came out. I’m a huge fan of its simplicity and reliability. It hasn’t gotten any sort of visual refresh in a long time, but I honestly haven’t been bothered by that. My goal is to interact with my podcast player as little as possible; so long as the UX doesn’t get in the way of that goal, I’m happy.

Previous Years

• 2017: Not recorded, but probably Overcast

• 2018: Overcast

• 2019: Overcast

Email

This year saw the biggest change to my email that I’ve had in a long time. After successfully avoiding the Superhuman hype for a long time, I eventually caved and tried it out. Turns out it’s really, really good. Would I use it if my work wasn’t paying for its painful $30/month subscription? Probably not. But if someone else is willing to pick up the tab then I’ll happily use it. It’s fast. It’s clean. It’s simple. It’s everything I want in an email app, really.

Previous Years

• 2017: Apple Mail/Airmail

• 2018: Airmail

• 2019: Airmail

Notes & Writing

It’s another year of Bear and Ulysses serving the majority of my writing needs. Most of my writing starts in Bear. It holds ephemeral notes that I need for just a short period of time, notes related to active projects that tend to live for weeks or months at a time, and it’s even the starting point for longer form writing. Once I’m ready to turn something into a piece of longform writing (like this article), I’ll move it over to Ulysses and finish it there. This writing duo has been solid for the past three years and I’m more or less happy with it.

New to the group this year, though, is Obsidian. After struggling with the concept of “digital gardens” and “Zettelkasten” I decided to really experiment with setting up one of my own. I think it’s still a bit of an open question whether it becomes a crucial part of my writing process, but for now my nascent Zettelkasten system is living in Obsidian.

Previous Years

• 2017: Bear/Byword

• 2018: Bear/Ulysses

• 2019: Bear/Ulysses

Read Later & RSS

This is another part of my software stack where I pretty consistently get a bit of a wandering eye but almost always end up back where I start, Instapaper. That didn’t really change this year. I went through a phase of using Apple’s integrated Reading List (again) and even poked around Pocket (again), but ultimately I came back to Instapaper. Something about its limited feature set, simplicity, and how well it handles me throwing things at it from lots of different places has made it a really solid part of my workflow. This year I started playing with Readwise and it has helped make my Instapaper archive an even more helpful place as it surfaces old notes and highlights.

RSS-wise, I’m happy with my Feedly/Unread combination that has been pretty solid for the past few years. Unread feels really snappy and  has an awesome feature where double tapping an article automatically saves it to Instapaper.

Previous Years

• 2017: Instapaper & Reeder

• 2018: Instapaper & Feed Wrangler/Unread

• 2019: Instapaper & Feedly/Unread

Calendar

I’ve become a much bigger proponent of hyper-scheduling/time blocking as a productivity practice so I’ve been leaning on my calendar software much harder than I have in the past. Luckily, Fantastical is a truly stellar piece of software. I love having different sets of calendars I can hide/show with the click of a button because I tend to work with different colleagues on several teams at once. Being able to see our different calendar configurations very quickly is amazing.

There’s a cool new kid on the block, Cron, that is trying to be the Superhuman for calendaring. I’ve played with it a little bit… and it is pretty good, so I’ll be keeping an eye on its development over the next year.

Previous Years

• 2017: Fantastical

• 2018: Fantastical

• 2019: Fantastical

Things

Not much to say here. Things remains the bedrock of my task management system. A rock solid piece of delightful software. Considering how frequently I use it you’d assume I’d have found and been annoyed by all its rough corners. That’s the thing, though — it doesn’t have rough corners.

The only frustration  I have with it, and it’s not even really a problem with the software, is that I occasionally work on projects with colleagues where we’re using a shared Kanban board in Trello or Notion as a project management tool. In those cases I end up basically manually syncing my Things database with those tools, which can be annoying and error prone, but it’s not the end of the world.

Previous Years

• 2017: Things

• 2018: Things

• 2019: Things

Books

I’ve always felt weird and bad that I’ve basically split my electronic library across two incompatible services: Apple Books and the Amazon Kindle. This year, I decided I’m going to default to buying my books from the Amazon Kindle ecosystem so that I always have the option of using a Kindle to consume them. I don’t mind reading on my phone, and in fact read almost the entirety of War and Peace on it this year, but every once in a while it’s nice to use a purely dedicated device for reading. If I want to do that, I need to buy my books from Amazon. So, that’s what I’m (mostly) doing.

Previous Years

• 2017: Apple Books/Kindle

• 2018: Apple Books/Kindle

• 2019: Apple Books/Kindle

Stuff That Hasn’t Changed Much Recently But I Still Use and Enjoy

I don’t have much to say about these other smaller utilities other than many of these have become solid contributors to my overall tool stack. Everything in this list has been the same for at least the last two or three years.

• Weather: Carrot

• Habit Tracking: Streaks

• Password Management: 1Password

• Maps: Apple Maps

• Journaling: Day One

• Sleep Tracking: AutoSleep

• Delivery Tracking: Deliveries

• Movie & TV Tracking: Letterboxd & TV Time

• Calculator: PCalc

• Flight Tracking: Flighty

• Life & Administrative Management: Notion

• Reddit: Apollo

• Time Sensitive Reminders: Due

• Recipes: Paprika

• Video Calls: Zoom

• Work Chat: Slack (with Discord becoming a larger part of my life now)

• Work Task Management: Trello & Notion

• Fitness Tracking: Strava

• Online Backup: Backblaze

• Social Media: Instagram, Twitter, & LinkedIn

• Audiobooks: Audible

• Newsletter Publishing: Substack (moved away from Mailchimp this year)

• Personal Website: Squarespace (articles syndicated to Medium as well)

Stuff I’ve Stopped Using

And on the other side of that coin is the stuff that I’ve stopped using. Sometimes it’s because I’ve found a tool that does something better than what’s on this list and sometimes it’s because whatever job this tool was filling is no longer something I need done. Many of these are great and worth checking out!

• Tweetbot

• GoodNotes (without an iPad I haven’t had much need for it)

• AnyList & Grocery (just use a shared Reminders list for groceries now)

• Timery (my calendar has basically become my time log)

• Nomorobo (spam calling seems better blocked by the OS nowadays)

• Calm & Waking Up (not really focusing on meditation at the moment)

• Bobby (no longer needed)

• 1Blocker

• UpHabit

• Stoop Inbox

2022 and Beyond

As with everything in my life, I’m always looking for ways to simplify. One way of simplifying is to avoid using specialized apps wherever I can and learn to get by with the default apps Apple provides as much as possible. I’ve run that experiment many times, and I’m sure I’ll have some moments over the next 12 months where I’m feeling overwhelmed and wanting to take drastic action in that direction, but I’m going to do my best to avoid any new Default Apps Only experiments. They tend to be quite disruptive to my workflow and they never stick for longer than a week or two.

Instead, I’m going to be on the lookout for ways to either a.) learn my current tools better so they become even more seamless and simple to use and/or b.) look for workflows that I no longer need or want in my life — meaning I can jettison the tools associated with that workflow. I already run pretty lean, so I don’t think it’s super likely that’s a path I’ll be exploring much in the next year, but it’s always possible.

Honestly, the best thing I can probably do for my sanity, productivity, and minimalist desires is to completely forget about everything on this list until I sit down 12 months from now and write my retrospective on 2022!

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I’d love to hear about the tools you use and love. Let me know on Twitter or by shooting me an email.

On Traveling Lightly

One of my favorite ways to practice minimalism is in the way I prepare for, pack, and approach travel. There’s a phrase that’s thrown around in this domain that I think captures it well; “traveling lightly.” I had some recent trips where I tried to make that mantra the focus of my experience, but it also got me thinking about where else I’ve noticed myself trying to lean into lightness, in ways other than how much stuff I put into a suitcase:

• When I wrote the first notes that eventually became this article, I was sitting on my balcony with my laptop in my lap rather than sitting at my big and official desk with my big and official monitor. Several weeks later, as I turn these notes into an actual draft, I’m laying on the couch with that same laptop propped up on my thighs while my feet dangle over the edge. I don’t need to be at my desk to write. I don’t need a 27” monitor to make words appear in front of me. I can just grab my primary computing device, find a relatively comfortable place to write, and just get my fingers moving on the keyboard.

• As I lay here with my feet dangling over the arm of the couch (please don’t picture the ergonomics of this position) I’ve got music pumping through my aging yet still fully functional AirPods. I’ve got some nice over the ear headphones in my office, but these lighter and simpler headphones are doing the trick. If Emily wasn’t in the room with me and trying to enjoy a podcast while folding laundry, I’d probably just be playing the music over the laptop speakers. Minimally viable sources of entertainment are often just fine.

• I went for a walk earlier this week without bringing my phone. I had my AirPods and my cellular watch. It allowed me to take a phone call from Emily but not be distracted by anything else. There was no way to give into the temptation to look something up online, respond to a message, or check Slack. It was a time to just let my thoughts meander through my mind without being able to take immediate action on them. I could certainly go lighter (goodbye AirPods and watch), but this felt good.

• Over the past few months there have been two Apple events where new iPhones, a new iPad mini, a new Watch, and a handful of very impressive new laptops were announced. In the past, when I was first starting to make good money I probably would’ve bought one of each. Need the latest and greatest “for my work”! Now? I’m happy with what I have. Everything I’m using is still relatively new and working really well. I don’t really want the headache of setting up new devices. I’m happy to just keep doing what I’m doing and using what I’m using.

• I didn’t get onto the iOS or macOS betas this summer. In the past I would’ve hopped on those as soon as they were available in order to see what all the new features were like, regardless of how buggy they were and how much those bugs interfered with the seamless use of my devices. This year I just waited until the full public versions were available and didn’t worry about testing out new features the second they were available.

• I spent the vast majority of my sabbatical not using an alarm clock to get up in the morning. I just let my body wake up naturally whenever it wants. I haven’t tried to replicate that now that I’m back at work, but I’m interested in seeing if there’s a way I can do that and still accomplish everything that I feel like I need to accomplish.

• I recently took a 3 night/4 day trip to New Orleans to attend my company’s retreat. Before I finished packing for the trip I took a step back after my first attempt and decided to really push myself to not bring anything that wasn’t absolutely essential. You can see my final packing list here, including the stuff I decided not to take. A few highlights that I think really encapsulate my attempt to travel (almost ridiculously) lightly included: not bringing my big noise cancelling headphones and just using my AirPods instead, not traveling with the smart watch I use for tracking my runs and instead just using my Apple Watch to accomplish that goal, not bringing my Kindle knowing I could read any book I wanted in the Kindle app on my phone, and only bringing two Apple Watch bands (one for working out in and one for casual wear) even though I originally though I’d bring a different one for each day of the retreat. All are pretty silly and inconsequential but the end result was definitely a bag that felt lighter and a mind that felt calmer, especially as I unpacked and re-packed at the beginning and end of the trip.

It’s interesting I mentioned so many tech things. I think my relationship with my gadgets is the newest frontier to my evolving minimalism practice. I don’t own very many clothes or many of the other knick knacks that many folks seem to have, but for the past couple years I’ve always had the latest and greatest gizmos. This was probably as an overcorrection to my teens and early twenties where I couldn’t afford the things I really wanted. After a period of exuberance in my early thirties, I think I’m starting to swing back the other direction.

There’s something freeing about understanding that you need fewer physical items than you thought to feel secure and prepared for whatever might happen. Of course, there’s a balance to be struck between being prepared for contingencies and falling flat on your face because you failed to bring or have something important. In most cases, though, it’s totally safe-to-try to lean further into the “travel lightly” mindset than may feel comfortable. It almost always works out just fine.

There’s probably a version of this article where I take the same concept of “traveling lightly” and answer it only from a non-material point-of-view. Traveling lightly is something that can be done without thinking about personal belongings or physical items at all and instead focusing purely on the mindset and quality of attention it implies. Perhaps next time!

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How do you like to “travel lightly” in your daily life? Shoot me an email at sam@samspurlin.com or find me on Twitter and tell me your favorite thing to do (or not do).

Lessons and Insights From My Four Month Sabbatical: The Final Review

At the end of May 2021, my colleagues at The Ready consented to a proposal I brought to our monthly Governance Meeting called Sabbatical Policy. Roughly five weeks later, I shared on Slack the output of a writing exercise I used to get clear on my intentions, concerns, and dreams for my imminent sabbatical and officially became the first person at The Ready to partake in this truly amazing benefit: one trimester, sixteen weeks, of paid sabbatical.

I’m now a couple weeks removed from the end of my sabbatical and wanting to capture some of the feelings, insights, and reflections before they are covered up by the daily demands of work-as-usual. 

How did I approach my sabbatical?

I thought long and hard about the ways I could “fail” this sabbatical. Knowing my personality and natural inclinations, I was far and away most worried that I’d mess up my sabbatical by being too structured and too focused on using the time productively. Of course, I knew there was some risk of swinging too far in the opposite direction and finding myself getting to the end of the sixteen weeks and feeling like I completely wasted my time. Ultimately, I decided the best way to ensure I was deliberate with my time was doing biweekly retrospectives where I asked myself three questions: What’s going well? What’s not going as well? How do I want the next two weeks to go?

(You can read each of these articles here, here, here, here, here, here, here and here.)

I also decided that for at least the first four weeks, I was going to try to have as few expectations for myself as possible. I figured I needed at least that long to start to recover from some of the burnout I was feeling, and that any decision I made about how to spend my sabbatical while still in that headspace would likely be quite flawed..

Initially I had a long list of things I wanted to do. I wanted to golf a lot. I wanted to play guitar. I wanted to play a bunch of video games. I wanted to start a new podcast. I wanted to explore writing fiction. The list was truly epic. By the time I hit the halfway point of my sabbatical, though, that list had gotten whittled down to just a few things that I was content to spend most of my time on. I’m glad I didn’t end up treating my list of general curiosities as a list of achievements to be earned or a checklist to complete.

What had my attention during my sabbatical?

Guilt and shame

The feelings that hit me the earliest and the strongest were ones of guilt and shame. I almost immediately felt guilty that my fiancée, my parents, and other people I’m close to didn’t have, or are unlikely to ever have, an opportunity to step away from their work like this. Our sabbatical policy is incredibly generous and The Ready is an extremely atypical company. Most of the folks in my life do not work for organizations where this could ever be an option for them. But they’re burned out, too. They work incredibly hard. They do great work. Why should I get access to something like this when they don’t?

I noticed myself doing something gross to help assuage the bad feelings this was creating in me — either exaggerating how burned out I was or exaggerating how much I was getting “done” during my sabbatical. My burnout was almost entirely self-inflicted in that I didn’t have the type of burnout you get from working in an oppressive environment, being underpaid, and dealing with toxicity day in and day out. Sometimes it felt like I hadn’t even really earned the right to use that word when there were obviously people who were much worse off than I was.

I also didn’t really get that much “done” during my sabbatical but I continually found myself reaching for language of productivity to justify why it was okay. Somehow it was okay for me to be taking a sabbatical if I was also doing a ton of reading and working on writing a book. But I don’t think I had too many conversations with loved ones where I confidently and happily said, “I did nothing today.”

Small decisions can make a big impact

On day 41 of my sabbatical, after getting a 90 minute massage in the morning, I took a handful of actions over the course of maybe two hours that fundamentally changed the trajectory of the rest of my sabbatical. They were as follows:

• Putting the bike rack that I had purchased over a year prior (and had been hiding in the back of a closet) on my car.

• Finding a local triathlon coach and reaching out to him to schedule a consultation.

• Booking a set of private lessons with a golf coach.

• Searching Craigslist for a used road bike, finding one, and reaching out to the seller to coordinate the pickup.

• Finding a local gym, getting a tour, and signing up for a membership.

These decisions set off a cascade of positivity that I’m still riding today. Some of those things I had been putting off for a year or longer (like figuring out how to install the bike rack on my car which was a required step in finding and buying a road bike). I think the rejuvenation that I had experienced over the previous 40 days of my sabbatical got me to the point where these actions no longer felt like they were beyond my ability. I wish I had gotten to that point sooner since it proved to be such a turning point for me, but I’m trying to learn to be grateful for getting to that point at all.

Ego, identity, and being needed

My identity is largely comprised of the work I do at The Ready and my ego likes being an “important” or “needed” person. Both of these constructs took a beating by realizing that my absence in the day-to-day operation of The Ready was not critical. The work kept going. My colleagues kept doing a great job. I don’t really get the sense that there was much pining and longing for my presence. And that’s a good thing! Truly, it is. It was just interesting to see a large part of my identity basically get put on pause for the better part of four months. It made space for other identities to step into the foreground, but it was definitely strange to no longer be organizing my days by talking to high powered executives or selling six figure consulting projects. If I’m not the org design consultant guy, who even am I?

What am I going to bring forward from my sabbatical and into my work?

Remember the vast expanse of time that summer vacation always felt like when we were kids? Not only did the summer break feel like eternity, it also marked a distinct phase change in your progression through the education system. You’d leave school in June as a fourth grader and you’d come back as a fifth grader. Some of those transitions were even more stark; elementary school to middle school and middle school to high school felt like foundational shifts. I’m thinking about my sabbatical in a similar way. There was Pre-Sabbatical Sam and now there’s Post-Sabbatical Sam. While I didn’t try to fundamentally change my sense of fashion or come back with a wild new haircut, there are a few things that I’m trying to do differently.

Fitness and sleep

My sabbatical helped me remember, or maybe learn for the first time, what it feels like to get enough sleep and to be proud of my level of physical fitness. I think I understand in a much more visceral way how my physical health is the bedrock of everything else. In the past I think I’ve gotten too cute with life hacks and tips and tricks for circumventing taking care of my sleep and my physical body as well as I should have. There are no shortcuts here. Getting enough sleep and doing what I need to do to be physically strong need to be non-negotiables for me. It means sacrificing other things so that these can truly be priorities. No more being “early morning guy” if it means I also become “trying to operate on less sleep than is ideal guy.”

It’s obviously one thing to take sleep and fitness seriously when there’s nothing else pulling at my time and attention. The trick is keeping up that dedication and focus even when the pressures and responsibilities of work return.

No more Imposter Syndrome

Before this sabbatical I conceptualized myself as a relatively green consultant who may have been at The Ready from day one, but didn’t really have the experience as a consultant that matched the expectationsI thought people had for me. I was still early in my career. I don’t really know what I’m doing. Like many, I was operating through a pretty heavy haze of Imposter Syndrome much of the time. 

Now, I’m consciously trying to shed that identity. I’m not a brand new consultant anymore. I’ve been doing this work specifically at The Ready for over six years. I’ve been working with organizations for more than 9 years. I’ve been doing individual coaching for over a decade. There aren’t many consultancies that are doing work like The Ready which means I’m legitimately one of the most experienced people in the world in the day-to-day reality of helping organizations transition to more human and complexity conscious ways of working. I’m no imposter — I’m legitimately good at what I do. 

What can I take on when I truly believe there’s no longer anything to hide about my professional competency?

Working sustainably

There are lots of reasons I eventually got to a point where it felt like a sabbatical was my only option for salvaging my relationship with my career. Among the most important reasons is a complete lack of boundaries. Not boundaries that I failed to establish with other people… but boundaries I needed to set up with myself. It’s my own personal psychology and baggage that set me up for burnout far more than it was any sort of external pressure from colleagues (or even clients). I realized during my sabbatical that this is truly the work that I want to dedicate my life to and while the specific form it may take over the course of my career will likely change, I fundamentally love working with organizations and people. If I want to do this work for an entire career, though, I need to take a longer-term perspective.

It’s easy when you’re employee #1 and trying to help build something from nothing to just take on more and more. That’s hard for anyone, but it’s especially hard for someone like me who has always felt he didn’t have the experience or expertise to be in the position where I kept finding myself. Luckily, I’m pretty good at learning and am naturally driven to figure things out. The reality of that confluence of factors, though, is feeling like I’m constantly sprinting to keep up with the next thing. I don’t think I have to be constantly sprinting anymore. I can save my sprints for the times where it really matters and I can settle into a more deliberate, hopefully more impactful, way of working that will make it such that when my eligibility comes up for my next sabbatical I’ll have to think long and hard about whether I even need or want it.

Final Thoughts

It was incredibly gratifying to receive such great feedback on all the retrospective articles I wrote over the past four months. I loved the advice, reactions, and thoughts that you all shared with me. I was worried that openly writing about what I was experiencing with my sabbatical would come across as boastful or tone deaf (which I’m sure it did to some folks) but I was hoping that it might be insightful or useful to at least a subset of the folks who read my work. I’ll officially close this project by saying thank you and that I hope all of you get a chance to experience your own sabbaticals at some point, too!

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Care to keep following along with me and my work at The Ready? Consider following me on Twitter and reading my writing at SamSpurlin.com. Also, my brother Max interviewed me about my sabbatical on episode 53 of our podcast, Fields of Work. If you want to hear me talk about my sabbatical rather than just read my writing, it’s worth checking out.

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 15 and 16

Sixteen weeks ago I promised to write eight biweekly retrospective articles as a way to keep myself accountable to being deliberate with how I spent my sabbatical. For the last time on this sabbatical, here’s what happened over the past two weeks.

(I intend to write one final article looking back at the entirety of my sabbatical sometime in the near future — this article is just focused on the final two weeks of it. Also, this article is a week late because, surprise!, I suddenly became much more time constrained once I started working again.)

Week 15 Notes

• Another full week of hitting all my planned workouts (6 days of working out and a rest day): 60 minute threshold bike ride, 40 min Fartlek run, 1600 yard swim, 45 minute easy bike ride, 50 minute long run/1200 yard recovery swim, and a 50 mile bike ride.

• After years of idly thinking about getting Lasik, I actually did the work to see whether it’d be feasible for me to do. Had my consultation early in the week and actually scheduled the procedure for later the same week.

• Did a few hours of work in preparation for the two workshops I needed to deliver in my first week back at work.

• Picked up our wedding bands from the jeweler.

• Had a coaching session with a client.

• Watched some preseason hockey games.

• Had another salsa lesson.

• Got tuxedo rentals figured out for my groomsmen and me.

• Met with a tattoo artist to talk about my next piece and scheduled it to be worked on in early November.

Week 16 Notes

• Had my Lasik post-op appointment. Everything went smoothly and I can see great!

• A full week of triathlon training (6 days of working out and a rest day): 65 minute split tempo bike ride, running drills & bodyweight strength, 1,700 yard recovery swim, 17 mile easy bike ride, 3 mile easy run, 1,600 yard swim, and a 20 mile easy ride

• Got dinner with some friends from graduate school who were in town

• The NHL regular season started!

• More prep for the workshops in my first week back.

• Flew to Kentucky to attend my grandfather’s funeral.

What Had My Attention

1. Lasik. Science is cool. Eye surgery is wild.

2. Hockey season is back. That makes me happy.

3. Avoidance of my book proposal. I haven’t touched my book proposal in weeks. But I’ve been thinking about it a lot and I’ve come to some fairly important decisions and realizations. I know that sounds like a cop out, but I’m sticking to my guns and saying it isn’t! More to come on this.

4. Lots of feelings as my sabbatical comes to an end at the same time my grandfather passes away. Grateful that because I was on sabbatical I was able to go to Kentucky this summer and actually see him while he was still feeling good enough for it to feel meaningful.

Recap of Reading & Other Media

• Finished the Count of Monte Cristo (finally!)

• Abandoned Noise: A Flaw in Human Judgement.

• Still working on: Annals of the Former World, Reinventing Scale-Ups: Radical Ideas for Growing Companies

• Finished season 2 of Ted Lasso, started and finished season 1 of Squid Game

• Haven’t made progress on any of the other shows I’m nominally watching: Bob’s Burgers, Y: The Last Man, What We Do in the Shadows, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, or Tiny World

Personal Metrics Recap

• Average Hours Slept Per Night: 8.42/8.18

• Average Quality Hours Slept Per Night: 6.02/6.07

• Average Deep Hours Slept Per Night: 1.88/1.76

• Average Sleeping Heart Rate: 48/48

• Average Steps Per Day: 11,731, 9,007

• Average Weekly Weight: —/202.7

• Days Exercised (out of 7): 7/7

• Days Read (out of 7): 7/7

• Days Written (out of 7): 0/0

• Days Meditated (out of 7): 0/0

Weight has been trending the right way for awhile now. This is the best I’ve felt about myself, physically, in a long time. I’ve even been transitioning all my old large sized t-shirts into new medium ones. It’s a good feeling.

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 13 and 14

The penultimate retrospective of my sabbatical! How often does one get to use the word penultimate in its proper context?! #blessed

Week 13 Notes

• Throughout my sabbatical I’ve kept up my (roughly) biweekly coaching sessions with a local founder. This week we decided to bring some of the work we’ve been doing together to the rest of her organization via a leadership workshop and some light touch advisory. I had to do a bit of administration to get that all sorted out but I’m stoked to dive into this soon!

• Dentists are my least favorite medical professionals to visit. I love my actual dentist. I had a routine cleaning and emerged without any cavities. Victory.

• Met up with a work colleague (👋 Alastair) for dinner while he was in town for a project.

• Lots of reading and thinking, but not much writing other than some entries in my Zettelkasten system.

• Normal training week: 1 hour easy bike, 40 min Fartlek run, 1200 yard recovery swim, 1 hour technique-focused bike, 40 min long run, 2.5 hour long bike.

Week 14 Notes

• Chatted with a graduate school friend who is embarking on a career shift into coaching to share my perspective on the coaching I’ve done across my career so far.

• Preseason hockey is here! Watched a few Detroit Red Wings games. Can’t wait for the regular seasons to start soon.

• I published issue #50 of The Deliberate wherein I asked for feedback on my draft book proposal

• I celebrated my sixth anniversary at The Ready!

• Recorded episode 52 of Fields of Work with Max

• Went for a hike with Emily along the Potomac River just outside of DC.

• Lots of reading and thinking. Even less writing than last week, though.

• Fitness training week: 45 minute easy bike, 40 minute running lactate threshold heart rate test, 1200 yard recovery swim, 30 minute easy recovery run, swimming t-pace test, and then 20 minute functional threshold power test.

What Has My Attention

Triathlon training continues being something that’s going really well. In Week 14 my coach scheduled a bunch of baseline fitness tests, so it was a bit of an atypical training week. Endurance training often means long workouts and relatively low intensities but fitness testing is generally relatively short workouts at extremely high intensity.

I shared a very rough draft of my book proposal with my newsletter subscribers and got so much great feedback. It’s always tough to submit a piece of work you care a lot about to criticism and to be honest I haven’t really dug through the feedback comment by comment, yet. I need to do that soon. I also need to decide how I want to proceed with this project, overall. Is selling a book proposal really the best move here? Or is there another path forward…?

As I mentioned in my Week 13 Notes, I’m doing a little bit of actual work work here and there. I’ve been paid my normal rate throughout the sabbatical but once I return to work I won’t be making my full rate unless I’m actively working on a project. I don’t really want a gap in my income so I’m doing a little bit of work now to lay the foundation for what I’ll be working on when I get back. Honestly, it has felt really good. I have a serious itch to dive back into this work (while also simultaneously wishing my sabbatical would continue forever? Feelings are weird.)

Recap of Reading & Other Media

• Started and finished: A World Without Email: Reimagining Work in an Age of Communication Overload

• Finished reading: The Art of Leadership

• Still working on Annals of the Former World, Reinventing Scale-Ups: Radical Ideas for Growing Companies, Noise: A flaw in Human Judgment, The Count of Monte Cristo.

• Keeping up to date with: new season of Bob’s Burgers and Ted Lasso

• Still watching, but behind: What We Do in the Shadows, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Tiny World

• Started watching: All of Nothing: Toronto Maple Leafs, Y: The Last Man

Personal Metrics Recap

As always, the format below is (Week 13 metric/Week 14 metric):

• Average Hours Slept Per Night: 8.37/8.1

• Average Quality Hours Slept Per Night: 5.98/5.7

• Average Deep Hours Slept Per Night: 2.18/2.27

• Average Sleeping Heart Rate: 48/46

• Average Steps Per Day: 10,125/12,616

• Average Weekly Weight: 206.3/206.4

• Days Exercised (out of 7): 7/7

• Days Read (out of 7): 7/7

• Days Written (out of 7): 3/4

• Days Meditated (out of 7): 2/1

Sleep is great. 

Looking Ahead to the Last Two Weeks of My Sabbatical

Oh God, it’s here. The end. How do I squeeze all the sabbatical juice out of these last two weeks?!

• I’m getting LASIK done this week. I’ve worn glasses and/or contacts since I was in 5th grade. It’s going to be wild to be able to see without assistance.

• I’m talking to a tattoo artist about my next piece and hopefully getting it scheduled. It has been a few years since my last one and I’ve been working on a concept that I’m excited to see an actual artist take a crack at.

• Triathlon training continues!

• A tiny smidge of work in order to make everything go smoothly when I’m back since I have two workshops in my first week and a third one, in California, the following week. Gotta get my ducks in a row.

• The final weekend of my sabbatical I’m going to be spending with my family in Michigan. Excited to give Emily the full Michigan-in-fall experience. A visit to the cider mill and the procurement of copious donuts are obviously at the top of that list.

• Making some decisions about how to proceed with my book project. I’m starting to sense that trying to jump straight to selling a book about these ideas might be trying to take a shortcut that I’ll end up regretting. Or that’s just my brain trying to wiggle out of the hard work of actually finishing a thing. Either way, I’d like to make a decision about how to proceed.

• Finally, I gotta finish The Count of Monte Cristo before this sabbatical ends. It has been hanging around forever and finishing it would feel like a real accomplishment. I’m over 60% of the way through it so it should be doable.

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 11 and 12

Weeks 11 and 12 are officially in the books, so let’s take a few minutes to see how deliberate I was with my time and attention.

Week 11 Notes

• The end of Week 10 was spent wrapping up another family wedding in Buffalo, NY which meant Week 11 started with a super early flight back to Virginia. I remember when I was doing this every week. Not a fan.

• Emily and I had our first couples golf lesson. This is the first professional golf instruction she has ever received and it went really well. She’s a natural. My game is really coming along, too.

• I had my first in-person training session with my coach. I met him at his home gym and we worked on my (utter lack of) swimming technique. It was the first professional swimming instruction I’ve had since I was a child. We took video of me from various angles and I now have a bunch of things to work on during my solo training sessions.

• I made major progress on my book proposal. Focusing on getting shitty first drafts of each section written with the idea that I’ll come back and polish them later.

• Emily and I went to the local jeweler we worked with for our engagement rings to design and order our wedding bands. Exciting!

Week 12 Notes

• I watched the Apple Event. Kind of ho hum in terms of what I’m interested in.

• I had a solo golf lesson. I’m still working on a tendency to turn my hands over too late, resulting in shots going consistently left. It feels like I’m so close to dialing this in to where it needs to be.

• Emily and I had our fourth salsa lesson. We’re starting to string together some various moves into something that actually feels like legitimate dancing. I continue to be surprised by how much I’m enjoying this.

• I completed a shitty first draft of entire book proposal (minus sample chapter).

What Has My Attention

I tried to jump into the deep end with a deep work experiment — 3 hours of deep work every day for the past two weeks. I very quickly realized it was unsustainable and that there’s a huge difference between understanding what deep work is and actually having developed the ability to do it well. My eyes are always bigger than my stomach when it comes to experiments like this. Lesson learned — if I care about developing my deep work muscle I’m much better served by doing something smaller and building from there rather than trying to do way too much way too quickly. This is apparently a lesson I will never stop needing to learn.

I’m still really enjoying all my triathlon training, particularly the cycling. It feels really good to see myself do difficult things regularly.

It feels really good to make progress on this book proposal. I’m holding it extremely lightly because I think there’s a lot of things I don’t have going in my favor in terms of selling a non-fiction book to a publisher, but even if this doesn’t turn into a traditionally published book it’s pushing me to develop my ideas unlike anything else I’ve done to this point. That work and thinking will show up somewhere, even if it’s not a book. If you want to help increase the odds of this thing being traditionally published, though, you could always follow me on Twitter and/or sign up for my newsletter!

Recap of Reading & Other Media

• Started and finished Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals by Oliver Burkeman. Really enjoyed it. I like Oliver’s take on personal development topics. Check out his other book, The Antidote, too.

• Finished Imagine It Forward: Courage, Creativity, and the Power of Change by Beth Comstock. I was extremely peripherally involved in some of the stuff mentioned in this book so it was interesting to get another perspective on what I thought happened. Surprisingly good.

• Started Annals of the Former World by John McPhee. Geology rocks, man.

• Started Reinventing Scale-Ups: Radical Ideas for Growing Companies by Travis Marsh & Susan Basterfield

• Started The Art of Leadership by Michael Loop

• Continued Noise: A Flaw in Human Judgment by Daniel Kahneman et al.

• Continued The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

• Continuing watching each episode of season 2 of Ted Lasso as it comes out

• Started the new season of What We Do in the Shadows

• A few episodes behind on the latest/last season of Brooklyn Nine-Nine

Personal Metrics Recap

As always, the format below is (Week 11 statistic/Week 12 statistic):

• Average Hours Slept Per Night: 7.6/8.1

• Average Quality Hours Slept Per Night: 5.7/5.7

• Average Deep Hours Slept Per Night: 2.18/1.98

• Average Sleeping Heart Rate: 51/48

• Average Steps Per Day: 13,149/9,416

• Average Weekly Weight: 207.3/207.2

• Days Exercised (Out of 7): 7/7

• Days Read (Out of 7): 6/7

• Days Written (Out of 7): 4/4

• Days Meditated (Out of 7): 2/1

In Week 12 I relaxed the expectation of waking up at 6:00 AM everyday and just let myself sleep until I naturally woke up (or Emily’s slightly later alarm woke me up). I’ve done experiments like this in the past and my takeaway has always been that even though I think sleep is really important and I feel better when I get more of it, I end up actually feeling worse by not getting those relatively early morning hours that waking up at 6:00 AM affords me. I’ve always self-identified as a “morning person” but something I realized this week is that I’m only a morning person in the sense that I like to be awake early — but I don’t actually like doing anything when I’m awake early (other than drinking coffee and reading). It’s not like I’m getting up early and really getting started on my day (although I do think I need to learn how to workout in the morning if I’m going to get more serious with triathlon).

I’m suddenly less inclined to keep getting up early when the reality of my life is such that I could probably be getting more sleep. Isn’t it stupid to be under slept in the name of sustaining some kind of arbitrary identity? Can I evolve out of this mindset of being a “morning person” and instead become a “sleep as much as possible person”? I’m not 100% sure but I think I’m going to keep it going for the next couple weeks and see how it goes. Also, now that I’m looking at the sleep data above, while I slept more in Week 12 my Quality Sleep and Deep Sleep were both better in Week 11. I’m going to have to keep an eye on that…

Looking Ahead to Weeks 13 & 14

We’re well and truly into the homestretch of this sabbatical now, with only four weeks remaining.

Emily and I decided against doing another trip to Cape Cod so the only remaining travel on the docket is a quick trip to Michigan to visit my family in Week 16. So, nothing the next two weeks. Looking forward to the calmness and stability associated with staying in one place.

Triathlon training continues. I’m working out 6 days a week and will continue doing so for the foreseeable future. My coach is starting to sprinkle in some new workout types (Fartleks!) so it’s still feeling fresh and fun. 

My main productive output will be refining the book proposal and writing the sample chapter that needs to be included in it. If I can have a more polished draft of the book proposal and a shitty first draft of the chapter finished by the end of Week 14, that would feel like a big win.

This week’s experiment is going to be to repeat my 3-hour per day deep work experiment but drastically scale it back to simply 30 minutes of deep work per day. Those 30 minutes are going to be super high quality and I’m going to take a few minutes after each session to just jot down some thoughts about how it went. 3 hours was way too audacious and 30 minutes feels too short, which means it’s probably just right.

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 9 and 10

Week 9 was all about working on my brother’s farm in Tennessee. I flew out there on Sunday night and went back to Virginia the following Sunday. The best way to hear about everything we got up to is to listen to the latest episode of Fields of Work where we talk about what the week was like. In a nutshell, I got a quick crash course in what it's like to run a small organic, no-till, market garden-style farm. We harvested vegetables and prepared orders that were placed via individual customers online, we prepped some larger restaurant and charity orders, we prepped for and sold at a local farmer's market, we prepared "shiitake logs" for growing mushrooms, we prepped beds for new seeds, we did major cleanup on a pepper field suffering from disease, we picked a field of butternut and honeynut squash, and took care of a bunch of other miscellaneous tasks that emerge when you're trying to dance between the needs of the plants in the ground, the customers, and the weather. All in all, it was a great week and it has made me excited for the day when I can do some of my own gardening.

The original plan was to wrap up this week by driving down to Sewanee to see Will and go for a bike ride, but just like last time I decided to modify my travel plans to get out of the way of a hurricane (Ida).

The first part of Week 10 was spent at home in Arlington where I was finally able to get some focused training (namely, time in the pool and on the bike) in for the triathlon I’m hoping to do in the spring. While I technically started training for it in Week 9, all the travel had been making it a little difficult to stick to the plan. Thursday night we flew to Buffalo (again) for another family wedding. I kept up my training pretty adequately by going for a couple of the longest runs I’ve gone on in the past few years.

In between the travel, training, and family responsibilities I was able to squeeze in a few more things:

• I found a few books that I had started reading a long time ago and somehow never finished: Why Are We Yelling? by Buster Benson and Shapers by Jonas Altman. I also finished Foundation by Isaac Asimov (which means I’m prepared for the upcoming Apple TV+ show) and The Alchemist by Paulo Coehlo. I’m still working on (and will be for awhile) The Count of Monte Cristo, The Enlightenment, and Noise.

• I made some progress on the book proposal I’m hoping to sell by the end of my sabbatical. I realized I needed to do a bunch of organizing of thinking and writing I’ve done in the past to really figure out the shape of this thing. Which brings me to my next bullet point…

• Despite having written about my skepticism of “digital gardens”, I invested some time in learning how to create a Zettelkasten environment in Obsidian. For the first time I think I’m really seeing why it might be worthwhile for me to invest in creating this for myself. I’m not saying I’ve gone completely into this world of personal knowledge management, but I’ve taken some tentative steps in that direction…

Personal Metrics

• Average hours slept per night: 7.65/7.27

• Average “quality” hours slept per night: 4.9/4.98

• Average deep hours slept per night: 1.58/2.02

• Average sleeping heart rate: 48/51

• Average steps per day: 8,953/14,607

• Average weekly weight: —/207.1

• Days exercised (out of 7): 3/7

• Days read (out of 7): 6/7

• Days written (out of 7): 3/1

• Days meditated (out of 7): 1/1

I knew my weight would start trending down soon! Not super surprised about the general inconsistency in my Anchor Habits considering how much of the last two weeks was spent outside of my usual routine. Ideally I’d love to get to a place where those numbers are 7’s across the board regardless of what’s going on in my life, but I’m not there yet.

What Has My Attention In Weeks 11 and 12?

First, and maybe most importantly, I have no travel scheduled for the next two weeks. I’m excited to dig back into my home routines.

The last few weeks have been all about shedding commitments and expectations so that I can focus on a few key essential projects. I’m no longer investing much time in Starcraft 2, I’m not worrying about writing other articles for my website, I’m not trying to publish new issues of my newsletter, I’m not going to teach myself how to code, I’m not going to dive into a research project that’s specifically about anything I’m doing at The Ready, and I’m not going to invest as much time as I thought I might in becoming a better golfer. All of these things are being almost entirely set aside, for now, in favor of two things: triathlon training and book proposal writing.

I’m working with a coach and targeting competing in an Olympic distance triathlon in April 2022. I have a long way to go, especially with my swimming. I’m training six days a week and loving all the “newbie gains” that I’m experiencing across the various disciplines. In the past couple weeks I have gone for the longest bike ride, swim, and run since my 20s.

Second, I’ve finally started to truly clarify an idea that I think actually pulls together the many intellectual threads I’ve been obsessed with for the better part of 10 years into something coherent and book-worthy. My goal is to get a proposal into the hands of an agent by the end of my sabbatical (but sooner if I can manage it). I’m committed to spending ~3 hours per day over the next couple weeks getting this proposal written and shipped.

That’s it. After 10 weeks of exploration and limited expectations I feel like I’ve coalesced around two lines of effort that are distinct from each other yet reinforce each other in useful ways. The physical exhaustion of triathlon training seems to calm my brain to the point where it becomes easier to follow and corral complex lines of thought and the tough intellectual work of trying to write a book gives me the itch to get outside and swim, ride, or run.

I feel calmer and more focused than I ever have during the course of my sabbatical thus far. I’m excited to see where this newfound clarity and concentration takes me over the coming weeks.

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 7 and 8

It’s hard to believe, but my sabbatical is now halfway complete. Week 7 was a usual week at home in Arlington and Week 8 was a “vacation” week in Cape Cod with Emily. Yes, even folks on sabbatical can take a vacation, apparently. 

I said at the end of my Week 5 and 6 Retrospective that I wanted to see myself meet with a personal trainer, take my new road bike out for a couple rides, use my new gym membership, and do a couple sessions with my golf coach. I absolutely did all of these things — plus some more. Let’s dig into some highlights from the past couple weeks:

• Attended two 1-on-1 golf lessons with a new coach. They went really well and his teaching approach connects with me much more than the fellow I worked with last fall. I understand on a much more fundamental level what I need to be doing and what I’ve been doing wrong up to this point. For the first time in awhile I’m feeling optimistic about my golf practice and I can see myself getting better.

• Took my new road bike out on a couple long (for me) rides. I love having an actual bike and getting outside on it. I’m excited to explore more of the routes near where I live.

• Emily and I had our third salsa lesson. It’s still feeling very cognitively demanding and overly mechanical, but there were a couple brief moments where it felt natural and like actual dancing. I’m finding myself surprised by how much I’m enjoying it.

• Had the usual biweekly coaching session with a client after we both took all of July off. This is my one very thin umbilical cord still connecting me to the world of work and The Ready.

• For getting to the Cape, we flew into Hyannis rather than Boston like we usually do. This involved taking a super small plane from Nantucket which was a really cool experience. There were 4 other people on the plane and the pilot gave us the safety briefing by turning around in his seat and talking to us.

• I rented a road bike while I was on the Cape and used it to explore the Cape Cod Rail Trail a couple times, including a 30 mile ride with Emily.

• As part of my focus on my physical fitness, I went on a couple runs and even did some actual open water swimming in front of the house where we were staying.

• I ate some seafood basically everyday except one while on the Cape, I think. Man, I love seafood. Also, Frosted Mini Wheats. #vacation

• We ended up cutting our trip a day short so we could fly out before Hurricane Henri hit the area.

• I did some work thinking through and writing out different “hooks” and organizing principles for a potential book project I’m working on.

While I managed to read everyday over the past two weeks, I feel like I didn’t really get into many, if any, deep and long reading sessions. My reading felt a little disjointed and inconsistent these past two weeks. I only finished one book, Other Minds: The Octopus, the Sea, and the Deep Origins of Consciousness and I also started Noise: A Flaw in Human Judgment, even though I’m still reading a bunch of others. That means I have four books currently in progress which is definitely the upper limit of what I can handle. Time to finish some!

TV-wise we’re excited Brooklyn 99 is back. We watched the first episode of the new season as well as continuing to watch each episode of Ted Lasso as it is released. I also played a game called Overboard a bit after hearing a podcast I really enjoy talk about it. It’s pretty cool and I’ll probably end up investing a bit more time into it. I played a bit more Starcraft 2 in Week 7 but don’t think I’ve really made much more progress in moving out of Platinum. 

I didn’t publish anything. No issue of The Deliberate, nothing on SamSpurlin.com, and not even a new Fields of Work episode. Not ideal, but not the end of the world since I did do some good unpublished work on the aforementioned book project. 

Personal Metrics

My standard metrics for the past two weeks are as follows (format = week 7/week 8)

• Average hours slept per night: 7.53 /7.53

• Average “quality” hours slept per night: 5.43/4.8

• Average deep hours slept per night: 1.98/1.63

• Average sleeping heart rate: 50/49

• Average steps per day: 12,286/7,220

• Average weekly weight: 209.19/208.8

• Days exercised (out of 7): 7/5

• Days read (out of 7): 7/7

• Days written (out of 7): 4/2

• Days meditated (out of 7): 2/0

A few thoughts: Weight doesn’t look good, but it’s a lagging indicator and I actually feel good about a few of the leading indicators that I track. It’ll get headed in the right direction, soon. Steps were way down during vacation week, but I did go on several long bike rides. Meditation practice is in shambles.

Weeks 9 and 10

I’m writing this article from the airplane that’s taking me to Nashville, where I’ll be working on my brother’s farm for the next week. My primary intention this week is to dive as deep as I can into his world, ask a ton of questions, and learn as much as I can. Other than that, if I’m able to get some runs and swims in and maybe pick at some writing a few times over the next week, I’ll be happy. 

Week 10 is a bit of a hodgepodge. I’m driving to another part of Tennessee on Monday to see a friend and hopefully go for a bike ride. Tuesday I’ll fly back to Virginia before turning around and flying back to Buffalo Thursday night through Sunday night for another family member’s wedding. As with all fractured weeks, I’m looking to not completely lose my daily Anchor Habits and move through all the travel shenanigans and family expectations with as little stress and as much grace as I can muster. 

See you in two weeks!

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 5 and 6

Another two weeks of sabbatical in the rear view mirror, another two-week retrospective on what I did, how I felt about it, and what I think is coming up next. This time around, I’m going to move the cut-and-dry statistics to the end of the article and jump into the crux of the retrospective quicker. Let’s get to it!

The first four weeks of my sabbatical were deliberately devoid of plans, intentions, or expectations. This was designed to give me time and space to see what emerged as important (if anything). While I think I could probably continue to bob along in that mode of existence for a long time, I wanted to start an easy transition out of it and into some sessions of deep work over. I knew I didn’t want to immediately dive into the deep end productivity-wise, but I also knew that I didn’t want to just float along as I had been.

Looking back at Weeks 5 & 6

Week 5 included driving to Buffalo (approximately 8 hours) on Thursday and back to Arlington on Sunday. In between those transportation days we were taking part in various wedding celebrations for a family member. Obviously not much “work” happened in that period of time, although I did manage a couple deep work sessions on some writing earlier in the week and a couple of times into Week 6. Week 6 started pretty slowly — possibly because of the recovery from aforementioned travel and wedding — but really started to pick up in the latter parts. 

As I wrote about in the latest issue of The Deliberate, on Thursday of last week I somehow got motivated to take care of a bunch of administrative tasks I had been dreading and avoiding for many months. With an afternoon of work I got a bunch of things off my plate and set myself up really well for some things that I want to do during the rest of my sabbatical. A few days later, I’m still riding that motivational high. In some ways that kind of felt like the transition between how I spent the first 4-5 weeks of my sabbatical (recovering,relaxing, etc.) and what I want to be doing next (taking action, doing things, trying things, and diving deep into meaningful pieces of work). It makes sense that a transition like this isn’t something you can necessarily will into existence. I wanted that transition to happen at the end of Week 4 but it actually happened in the middle of Week 6. I’ll take it.

The other thing that’s worth talking about briefly is I tried to officially do three personal experiments in week 5. They all seemed small enough on their own, but when I combined them together they started feeling simultaneously and paradoxically overwhelming and unimportant. This is a lesson I seem to need to learn over and over. Always do one personal experiment at a time — especially if it seems “too small.” By limiting the number of experiments I’m allowed to do at one time it makes them more important and it makes me take them more seriously. When I try to do too many at once it’s easy to let one or more drop off and you end up with a really hodgepodge set of results for the week. As a sort of recovery week from the debacle of Week 5 I decided to not do any experiments in Week 6.

What’s up for Week 7 and 8?

As I mentioned above, I made some decisions in Week 6 that will start to come to fruition in Week 7, 8, and beyond. A quick run through of what’s on my plate for the next two weeks:

• Meeting with a personal trainer to talk about some personal fitness goals I have and how he can help me.

• Taking my new road bike out for a couple of rides

• Using the gym membership I just signed up for — particularly for Olympic weightlifting I recently remembered I thoroughly enjoy

• Do a couple of sessions with my golf coach

Obviously, thoughts and intentions about my personal health have bubbled to the fore over the past few weeks and I’m taking some deliberate action in that realm. Other than these things, I’m excited to dig into one specific writing project over the next two weeks — figuring out if the constellation of things I’ve been writing about and care about can be massaged into a book that anybody other than me would be interested in reading. I’m going to take a crack at it over the next few weeks and see whether I can definitively answer that question.

The only added wrinkle is that Week 8 is going to be spent in Cape Cod rather than home in Virginia. This will be Emily’s main vacation for the summer and while I obviously don’t “need” a vacation, that is the headspace we will be occupying together that week. That being said, I don’t think there’s any reason that I can’t keep up with my writing, thinking, and exercise intentions while I’m there. So, other than some of the chaos that travel introduces to a routine, I don’t think it’ll be too different from what I’ve been doing at home for the past month.

After these two weeks I’ll officially be halfway through my sabbatical — which is truly bonkers.

The numbers

Here are some personal stats from the past two weeks, for those of you who find this part interesting. As always, the numbers below take the format of (Week 6 #/Week 7 #):

• Average hours slept per night: 7.12/7.9

• Average “quality” hours slept per night: 5.17/5.82

• Average deep hours slept per night: 2.03/2.02

• Average sleeping heart rate: 50/50

• Average steps per day: 10,981/11,123

• Average weekly weight: 206.77/207.37

• Days exercised (out of 7): 7/6

• Days read (out of 7): 7/6

• Days written (out of 7): 4/5

• Days meditated (out of 7): 3/1

On the reading front, this is what I’ve been getting into:

• Continued The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

• Finished Code Girls by Liza Mundy

• Finished Empire of the Summer Moon by S.C. Gwynne

• Started Other Minds: The Octopus, the Sea, and the Deep Origins of Consciousness by Peter Godfrey-Smith

• Started Foundation by Isaac Asimov

• Started The Enlightenment: The Pursuit of Happiness, 1680-1790 by Ritchie Robertson

A relatively quiet two weeks in terms of video games and TV:

• Still playing a couple games of Starcraft 2 competitive ladder most days while deliberately trying to hone specific skills. Should be entering a Platinum 1 league as Random soon (have been sitting at #1 in Platinum 2 for a few days now)

• Playing the daily “Chaos Realm” map on Card of Darkness every day (takes like 5 minutes)

• Continuing to watch each episode of season 2 of Ted Lasso as they are released (how good was episode 3, eh?)

A few other things of note:

• Published issue #49 of The Deliberate

• Published episode #50 of Fields of Work

See you in two weeks!

Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 3 and 4

I’m on a 16 week sabbatical and to ensure I don’t utterly squander it I’m writing biweekly retrospectives.

I spent my first two weeks not doing much of anything (purposely) and “emptying the tank” in preparation for what might come next. Weeks three and four were largely the same, with some slight tweaks.

What did I do?

First, let’s review a handful of the weekly metrics I collect on myself, just to get an initial sense of how I’m doing. Each of the following metrics below follow the format of (Week 3 metric/Week 4 metric).

• Average hours slept per night: 7.05/7.77

• Average “quality” hours slept per night: 5.08/5.62

• Average deep hours slept per night: 1.9/1.9

• Average sleeping heart rate: 48/50

• Average steps per day: 13,570/15,842

• Total miles cycled per week: 0/11.6

• Average weekly weight: 207.1/208.3

• Days exercised (out of 7): 7/6

• Days read (out of 7): 7/5

• Days written (out of 7): 3/3

• Days meditated (out of 7): 4/2

A couple things are worth expounding on a little bit. The Steps number from Week 4 is definitely artificially high (and you’ll see why later). Weight is still trending upward, which isn’t ideal, and has been going up consistently enough to trigger some action on my part. Lastly, it’s surprising to see I missed two days of reading last week. I’m really not sure how that happened (or if that’s truly accurate) but it’s rare for me to miss one day, never mind two. 

With some basic personal metrics out of the way, let’s check-in on how else I’ve been using my time over the past two weeks. First, books:

• Started The Count of Monte Cristo (Apple Books/iPhone) by Alexandre Dumas

• Started Code Girls (physical book for reading in bed) by Liza Mundy

• Started Empire of the Summer Moon (audiobook) by S.C. Gwynne

• Started and finished The Adventure Zone: The Crystal Kingdom graphic novel

• Re-read Deep Work by Cal Newport

• Finished The Structure of Scientific Revolutions by Thomas Kuhn (audiobook)

Next, video games, TV, and movies:

• I’ve played at least a couple games of Starcraft 2 competitive ladder each day

• Picked up Hearthstone and Card of Darkness on iOS a little bit after having not touched either one in over a year

• Tried Magic The Gathering: Arena on iOS for a little bit (I used to love actual MTG when I was a kid so playing the digital version was a good and weird combo of novelty and nostalgia)

• Dabbled with Alto’s Odyssey again for just a couple minutes (I’m on the last achievement but I haven’t played it in so long I think I’ve lost all the skill I’d need to actually beat it…)

• Continued to do the NYT Mini Crossword and 3 games of Up Spell with Emily every night

• Started watching season 2 of Ted Lasso(!)

• Watched the second episode of season 2 of Tiny World

• Watched the first episode of Succession

• Watched the second episode of season 1 of I Think You Should Leave with Tim Robinson

• Re-watched Bo Burnham’s “Inside”

• Re-watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Emily had just finished the book)

Finally, just a grab bag of other things I’ve been doing over the past couple weeks:

• No travel this week so mostly hung out at home in Virginia (and the apartment’s pool)

• Tried to do a week of very long walks. Did 20 miles on Monday of Week 4 but absolutely destroyed my feet with blisters and basically had to abandon the whole endeavor. I did manage to eke out 8.6 more miles on Tuesday and a couple shorter walks the rest of the week, but for all intents and purposes I basically bailed after Tuesday.

• Got dinner with a visiting friend at The Duck and the Peach in D.C.

• Got dinner with another visiting friend at Founding Farmers in D.C.

• Emily and I had our second salsa lesson and we got dinner afterward at Founding Farmers (and I wonder why my weight is going up…).

• Started rebuilding my informational ecosystem from scratch after having “emptied the tank” over the previous couple of weeks (much more on this soon)

• Went to the driving range a couple times and further learned that I’ve lost all semblance of being able to hit a golf ball consistently

• Made progress on our wedding website

• Continued to avoid eating a ton of raw vegetables (i.e. salads) to see if perhaps that has been triggering my intermittent yet acute intestinal distress. That hypothesis is currently supported by the evidence…

What went well?

Considering I had very low expectations for myself over the past two weeks, I’m tempted to ignore these two evaluative questions entirely. If I had to point to a couple things that felt like they went particularly well over this period:

• Re-reading Deep Work last weekend was good timing. I feel primed and ready to dive back into some substantive work now.

• I think I did a good job not thinking about work (and not feeling guilty about it)

• Emily and I practiced salsa a couple times prior to our second lesson and the second lesson itself went really well

• The fact that I finished a couple books and made progress on a few more is good

• I also spent a couple hours one afternoon re-populating Things. That app is such an important part of how I work so it felt good to take it from empty (which was kind of scary in and of itself) to filled up with good things that I’m excited to dig into

What didn’t go as well?

Again, I’m holding these lightly as the whole theme of the past two weeks was low expectations and guilt-free existence. That being said:

Keep moving and get out of the way. Photo by me.

• I missed a couple days in my very simple Sabbatical Log that I keep in Day One. It’s literally just a daily bulleted list of what I did but it completely slipped my mind for the second part of last week.

• As I alluded to, my Week of Long Walks experiment was kind of a bust and my heels still hurt.

• Even with zero expectations and a guilt-free ticket to do whatever I want, I think I’m spending too much time on my phone reading Twitter and Reddit in the morning.

• My weight has been heading, albeit slowly, in the wrong direction for a couple weeks. Too much delivery and restaurant food, not enough mindfulness around portion sizes.

What’s the plan for weeks 5 and 6?

If the first four weeks of my sabbatical were about unwinding, emptying, and floating then the next couple weeks are about deliberately refilling, channeling my attention in more productive directions, and starting to wake my somewhat atrophied concentration and writing muscles. My intention isn’t to go from zero to one hundred. But I do want to start setting aside a substantial chunk of each day to deliberately work on meaningful projects. To start, I think that’s going to mean restarting my usual morning routine and putting in 3-4 hours of focused work every morning. I think I’ll keep my afternoons will be a bit more unstructured and will allow myself to follow my nose a bit more.

Other than the overall intention to shift from a purely restorative mode into a slightly more productive mode, I know we have a little bit of travel coming up at the end of Week 5 (6 hour drive to Buffalo for a family wedding, a couple days of celebrations/obligations, and then a 6 hour drive back on Sunday). Travel always introduces more variables but I don’t anticipate it changing my plans very much.

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Sabbatical Retrospective: Weeks 1 and 2

I just wrapped up the second week of my sabbatical so wanted to take a few minutes to look at what I’ve done, what I’m thought and felt, and check-in with my overall intentions.

I told myself that I’d try to spend at least the first couple weeks, possibly the first month, of my sabbatical being very kind to myself. I didn’t want to immediately dive into some kind of productive activity even though there’s a large part of me yelling about using this time productively. I’m becoming increasingly convinced that it’s important to not give into that voice. There’s a kind of unwinding or slowing down that I think is extremely necessary and I can’t do it if I don’t give myself the time, space, or permission for it to happen.

Before I do any additional subjective retrospection, I think it’s worth capturing a handful of objective metrics from the past couple weeks (week 1/week 2):

• Average hours slept per night: 7.62/7.75

• Average “quality” hours slept per night: 5.53/5.38

• Average “deep” hours slept per night: 2.12/1.95

• Average sleeping heart rate: 51/48

• Average steps per day: 14,850/13,019

• Total miles cycled: 8.8/9.4

• Average weight: 206.4/206.7

• Days exercised: 7/7

• Days read: 6/7

• Days written: 2/2

• Days meditated: 2/1

In week 2 I tried to do a better job of just letting myself sleep until I naturally woke up. The only number that stands out to me as particularly interesting is the average sleeping heart rate of 48 in week 2. I think that’s the lowest I’ve seen in well over a year — maybe longer. Obviously, I de-emphasized cycling miles in favor of walking/running and really didn’t do much consistent writing or meditating. As far as what else I got up to over the past two weeks, here’s a brief log:

• Finished reading Tiamat’s Wrath by James S.A. Corey (The Expanse #8)

• Started and finished reading On Writing by Stephen King

• Started and finished reading The Wind Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami

• Wrote and published an article on SamSpurlin.com, What I’m Thinking About as I Embark on a Sabbatical

• Recorded and published an episode of Fields of Work

• Went to my first doctor checkup in several years. Got some bloodwork done and found out my cholesterol and triglycerides are higher than they should be. Woo!

• Watched the Tampa Bay Lightning win the Stanley Cup.

• Hung out by the pool at our apartment complex a few times. Tried to not get sunburned.

• Conducted a coaching session with a client (agreed to keep meeting every other week throughout my sabbatical)

• Had a conversation with a friend about his experience with sabbatical and about a piece of software he’s working on

• Had dinner at La Collina in Washington D.C.

• Got a massage. Managed to stay awake the whole time, for a change.

• Got a fresh haircut.

• Recorded an episode of the Brave New Work podcast (was scheduled before I knew I was going on sabbatical and I didn’t want to reschedule it). I’m guessing it’ll come out in a few weeks.

• Had my first salsa lesson.

• Talked to a former grad school classmate about some career stuff she’s working through

• Had dinner at California Pizza Kitchen

• Lots of cooking dinner at home

• Made some bread and cookies

• Went for a couple 2 mile runs for the first time in months

Emptying the Tank

Other than these activities, the other thing that had my attention over the past two weeks was a general intention of “getting to empty.” This initiative actually started a couple weeks before the official start of my sabbatical. I’ve been going through as many services, files, backlogs, tools, and physical belongings as possible and asking myself, “Do I really need this?”

• Unsubscribed from all newsletters

• Unsubscribed from all podcasts

• Blocked myself from all social media

• Deleted all my RSS feeds

• Unsbscribed from as many services as possible

• Used default apps & tools wherever I could

• Went through my files and deleted anything I no longer needed (old project files, notes, etc.)

• Wiped out my Instapaper backlog

• Wiped out my Someday/Maybe project list

• Wiped out everything in my task management software

• Wiped out my backlog of potential personal experiments

• Simplified and consolidated my personal finances

• Donated or threw away as many unused physical items as possible

I’ve since relaxed a few of these restrictions (I resubscribed to a few of my usual podcasts and am no longer restricting access to Twitter or Instagram) but the overall effort will generally continue over the next two weeks, too. It’s amazing the nearly physical effect it can have to remove things that are ephemeral yet apparently carry considerable psychological weight (like lists of projects or tasks I feel like I should do or articles I said I wanted to read but hadn’t gotten to, yet). There are a few more things in this decluttering vein I think I still want to do and I may tackle a couple of them in Weeks 3 and 4 (potentially a complete online account audit/purge and a deep clean of my personal and work Google Drive).

Intentions for Weeks 3 and 4

As far as my intentions for the next two weeks go — it’s much of the same as the first two weeks. I’m still not going to hold myself to any expectations around sitting down and “working on” something everyday. I’d like to continue doing some light writing (like this) around what I’m doing and experiencing, but it’d be premature to really dive into a substantial project right now. Instead, I’m going to continue the process of clearing the decks as much as possible. Creating space and then giving myself permission to wander through that space is the name of the game right now. Realistically, that means trying to hit my Anchor Habits everyday, continuing to use Starcraft 2 as an arena to practice useful metacognitive skills, deliberately working on my golf game, and generally just doing whatever I want — as long as I do those things one at a time. The only additional thing I’m going to add to my plate this week is to try to notice and write down when I’m thinking about something I miss, want to do, or feel like I should do. There’s no commitment to actually do anything with that information (at least not right away). I’d just like to have a bit more of a running log of what’s going on in my brain when I take away the stuff that’s usually using up all its cycles.

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What I’m Thinking About as I Embark on a Sabbatical

For the last week I’ve been on sabbatical from The Ready. I have approximately 15 more weeks to go. What follows is a slightly cleaned up and elaborated version of an ICBD* exercise I shared with my colleagues before I signed off for the next few months. We generally use it with teams who are preparing to embark on some kind of new project or endeavor together, but it struck me as a potentially useful solo writing exercise, too. The idea is simple, ask yourself the following questions and you’ll probably feel much clearer about what you’re going to do and how you’re going to do it:

1. What are your intentions for this? Why are you here? Why do you want to be a part of this?

2. What are your concerns? What are you worried about?

3. What boundaries do you need? What will help alleviate some of your concerns?

4. What’s the dream outcome of this endeavor? What will it feel like? What will it look like?

Intentions

My first day of sabbatical was Monday, June 28th. My last day of sabbatical will be October 15th. I’m not 100% sure what’s going to happen between those two dates and I’m trying to be okay with that ambiguity.

There are obviously multiple very different paths available to me. I could really lean into not having any sort of structure or project and just see where my nose takes me over the next couple months. I’ll undoubtedly find some interesting things to do, read, and explore that I’d otherwise be incredibly unlikely to find in the course of my “regular life.”

I could pick one major project, like writing a book, and use my sabbatical to dive deep into it. It would come, potentially, at the cost of having more relaxation or unstructured time. But when would I have a better chance to focus on something like this?

Obviously, this is a false dichotomy. I’ll probably inhabit both of these ways of being — and others — over the course of these four months. The main thing that I’m holding myself accountable to is simply being deliberate with how I decide to use the time. That doesn’t mean I need to be super productive. I can be deliberate about playing video games, sitting by the pool, or going for long walks. What I don’t want to happen, though, is floating through my sabbatical without ever making any decisions about what I want my moment-to-moment experience to be. 

I’m up for some really focused and deep work (for example, I’m sitting down and writing this article) and I’m up for some extremely unstructured exploration. I’ll read. I’ll play some video games. I’ll go for walks. I’ll golf. I’ll probably go work on my brother’s farm for a little bit. I’m trying to hold it all very lightly… yet deliberately.

In broad strokes, though, my intention with this sabbatical is to get Healthy, Happy, and Hungry again. I intend to eat well and move my body such that the version of me that comes out the other end of this sabbatical in October feels and looks healthier than the version who went into the sabbatical in June. I intend to do things that restore my spirit and my outlook on my work and life. And finally, I want to come out of this sabbatical just yearning to get back into the work of my lifetime with The Ready. I want to be champing at the bit to get back into the mix of things and bring my newly restored self to the difficult work of transforming organizations and building a company capable of putting a dent in the universe.

Concerns

I could write an entire article only about my concerns. I’ll do my best to distill them to the most cogent and urgent.

In some ways, this sabbatical and the fact that I feel like I need it, and maybe have actually earned it, feels shameful. It’s an incredibly generous benefit. I’m already well paid and I sit inside an air conditioned room and mostly look at computers all day. There are so many people who are more deserving of a massive break from work. Why do I get this? What about people like my parents? My fiancee? My brothers? Or folks in truly essential yet low paid jobs that are 10x more physically draining than mine?

I’ve been around since the very beginning of The Ready. I was the first employee so I’ve been in the mix with everything that has happened... and now I’m going to be away for awhile. Will I still have a good reputation when I return? Will I be the only one who ever partakes in this policy and I’ll wear some kind of scarlet letter for the rest of my time there? What cool projects, moments, and things are going to happen while I’m gone?

I’m concerned I’ll feel too much pressure to make my sabbatical “worth it” and dive deep into some kind of work-adjacent project so that I can point to something at the end of it to justify the expense to the company. We explicitly didn’t write detailed expectations into the sabbatical policy but I know that one way I’ll try to soothe feelings of psychic distress and guilt is to make something so amazing and important that everyone thinks, “Wow! Sam sure did a good job on his sabbatical.”

And then, on the other side of that continuum, I’m worried I’ll under plan my sabbatical so drastically that I’ll just kind of float through it, get to the end, and realize I never really did anything worthwhile or truly restored myself. While I know I don’t want to make my sabbatical a super planned and rigid endeavor, I do know that I want to be deliberate about how I spend my time. There are things I want to think about, write, and explore that won’t “just happen.” I’ll need to make them happen if they’re going to happen at all.

Lastly, work has been my primary identity for… basically my entire adult life? I’ve either been working or going to school — or commonly, both — since 2004. I’ve never not worked. I worked through undergrad. When I graduated, I spent the first part of my twenties hustling to make a teaching career work while having graduated into the Great Recession. After beating my head against that intention, often while holding multiple jobs at once, I spent the rest of my twenties going to graduate school while working as a teaching and research assistant and while still writing my website and still taking on coaching clients and trying to start a consulting company and taking on freelance consulting gigs. Then, blessedly, The Ready. And continuing my PhD work while also being the first employee at a company in an industry I desperately wanted to be in but had no experience (cue the imposter syndrome and the manic sprint to self-educate myself into some feelings of competence). And throughout all of this my area of focus has been on the experience of work for other people. How can organizations be better? Are there better ways of working? What does the future of work look like?

So, yeah, I think about work a lot. If I’m not working, or helping other people work, then who exactly am I?

Boundaries

I made it clear to my colleagues (and implicitly, myself) that I’m going to try to take this sabbatical as seriously as possible. Which means I’m not going to hang out on Slack or be checking my work email. Both of those things have been excised from my phone and require some deliberate effort to log back into on my computer.

Although I don’t know the exact shape that this sabbatical will take (and I’m sure it’ll morph over time), I’m committing to sticking to my normal rhythms related to review and planning. Specifically, that means continuing to do my Sunday afternoon weekly review and planning sessions as well as my monthly sessions. They will probably be much shorter and less involved than when I’m working full-time, but they are at least some built-in checkpoints where I can ask myself how things are going and whether I want to make any changes to how I’ve been operating.

I’m also going to keep a very simple daily Sabbatical Log where I jot down what I did each day. I suspect it’ll be an interesting thing to look back on in the future and the act of having to write a few bullet points each evening will help me keep my attention deliberately engaged.

I’m sure I’ll come up with more boundaries over time, but I’ve generally found that the fewer and clearer there are the more useful they end up being.

Dreams

Luckily, I can think of several different dream scenarios that will leave me feeling like I treated this sabbatical with the respect it deserves and gave me the outcomes I need. I don’t need one specific outcome to feel like I got what I needed from this. As I mentioned in the Intentions section, the pithy one-liner for this sabbatical is “get Healthy, Happy, and Hungry.”

Some characteristics of the dream scenario for Healthy:

• Lose around 10 pounds

• Get my cholesterol and triglycerides lowered

• Get my food sensitivities and allergies sorted

• Run, cycle, and walk consistently

• Meditate consistently

Some characteristics of the dream scenario for Happy:

• Play a bunch of golf and drastically improve

• Play a bunch of Starcraft 2 and treat it as an arena for deliberate practice

• Read fiction

• Spend a significant amount of time in contemplation and writing in my journal

Some characteristics of the dream scenario for Hungry:

• Use this non-distracted time to develop my skills in concentration, focus, and deep work while learning about a bunch of organizational, consulting, and adjacent topics

• Develop a bunch of the amorphous ideas that have been bouncing around in my head for years into coherent pieces of writing

• Deliberately develop surprising and creative connections between my various interests and the domain of organizational design and transformation

I hope it’s not a cop out and I hope I’m not abusing the word… but truly the dream scenario of this sabbatical is that I can look back at how I spent my time over the last four months and say that whatever I decided to do I did it deliberately. I’m open to the idea that this sabbatical may take an unexpected left turn at some point. I’m open to the idea that I may decide to throw away all my intentions except one. I’m open to the idea that I may decide to do a bunch of things that are currently not even on my radar. The only thing I’m holding myself to is staying conscious, intentional, and deliberate through it all.

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*This is an exercise that was developed by my former colleague, Bob Gower, and his wife, Alexandra Jamieson. If you’re interested in learning more about it, check out their book Radical Alignment and their company The Alignment Company.

Why Your New Strategy Will Fail

As organizational transformation consultants, we’re often invited to help functions, departments, and teams of all kinds within massive enterprises recover from failed strategy implementations. Regardless of the industry or organization, the narrative of each failure follows a familiar arc. A “new strategy” is developed over several months of backbreaking creative and consensus-building efforts. It ultimately results in a key artifact (usually an exceedingly beautiful deck of slides) that clearly articulates a smart and cogent shift in priority. There is (seemingly) buy-in from all the key players and generally a sense of, “Okay, this makes sense. Now we just have to implement it.” Inevitably, the strategy fails to manifest in any major positive changes and after 18–36 months of middling returns, it’s decided that a shift in strategy is needed and the cycle begins anew.

Why isn’t articulating a strategy enough? Why does it often fall down during implementation? What’s actually going on here?

New Strategy and Old Ways of Working

Mike Tyson likely wasn’t talking about organizations when he quipped, “Everyone has a plan until they get punched in the mouth.” If a carefully crafted strategy document is the plan in the aforementioned quote, then bringing that plan into contact with the rest of an organization is the punch in the mouth. Regardless of how inclusive the process was for developing the strategy, how many rounds of revision it went through, and how many senior leaders pledged to support it, the reality is that most deliberately developed strategies don’t survive contact with the rest of the organization — never mind the market.

The organizational environment into which a strategy needs to be implemented is one characterized by increasing complexity, volatility, uncertainty, and ambiguity. The conditions that organizations and leaders must navigate, both internally and externally, are only growing more difficult to predict and control. This diminishes the likelihood that the “right” people can make all the “right” decisions at the “right” time to successfully implement a strategy.

In a bygone era it may have been possible to play the role of leader as chess grandmaster. They saw the future more clearly than their opponent and could move their discrete pieces to and fro until declaring victory. As complicated as chess is, it still consists of a knowable subset of components that follow specific rules of engagement. Modern organizations are more like chaotic weather systems or biological ecosystems, neither of which can be known or driven like a game of chess. Instead, they may be influenced or managed, at best. This means leaders must adopt a different posture in order to meaningfully influence the way the work unfolds — a conscientious gardener rather than an all-knowing chessmaster. A chessmaster thrives when they can see the future better than their opponent and make one correct decision after another. A gardener must instead retain a posture of curiosity, of noticing, and of continuous interaction with the garden’s complex system. Put plainly, a strategy cannot be “chessmastered” into business outcomes because the organization and market in which it must be operationalized are much more like a garden than a game.

What does this mean for how we think about the implementation of strategy? To start, we should swap “implementation,” which implies a one-time activity, for “implementing,” which suggests ongoing and unceasing effort.

Any strategy document is a shared artifact filled with creative and nuanced thinking. Given the cross-functional reality of how work gets done in any large bureaucracy, no one team, function, or organization can operationalize a strategy in isolation. Instead, many stakeholders with many incentives (both explicit and implicit) need to simultaneously share responsibility for whether it becomes an animating and unifying force in the organization. How can something that touches so many parts of an organization, with such varied incentives and unique concerns, fulfill the hopes and dreams it was designed to achieve without being ground to a halt by the bureaucracy that originally spawned it?

The Intersection of Strategy and Operating System

An organization’s OS ultimately determines whether the intentions embedded within a shift in strategy find fertile soil and grow or fall upon the ground and whither. An OS comprises the assumptions, principles, practices, and behaviors that are encouraged, supported, and rewarded across multiple facets of an organization. It is the mostly invisible yet pervasive milieu that every employee of an organization simultaneously exists in and helps create.

Developing and implementing a strategy is an attempt at being deliberate about what an organization is going to do and how it’s going to do it. An organization’s current OS is always perfectly optimized for the results it’s currently getting. In this way, strategy and organizational operating systems are intimately connected, whether that connection is explicitly called out or not. Said another way, if we try to operationalize a new strategy into an organization’s original OS, which presumably created the need for a shift in strategy in the first place, then we risk being thwarted by the very forces that prompted our desire to change.

Therefore, for a new strategy to change the course of an organization or team, it must go hand-in-hand with holistic OS change.

How Legacy Operating Systems Sabotage Strategy

First, bureaucracy optimizes for minimizing risks of commission, rather than risks of omission. The risks of taking the wrong action are talked about openly but there’s rarely much conversation about the risk inherent in failing to do something — and the latter can create equally problematic outcomes. This inability to notice the opportunity costs at play manifests as an unwillingness to do things that are unproven or unknown in favor of just doing what is already being done but (hopefully) slightly better. To the extent that a strategy represents an organization’s intention to step into the unknown, it’s going to bump up against this propensity for not taking risks and all the rigamarole, theater, and political shenanigans that inevitably accompany such risk aversion.

Second, most large bureaucracies struggle with having a coherent approach to enterprise-wide problems. Employee identities are often more strongly aligned with business area, function, or program than to the overall enterprise. Making an initiative “cross-functional” often means guaranteeing every possible faction equal representation, so working groups and meetings quickly inflate to untenable sizes. A new strategy can’t simply be a statement of what an organization needs to do; it must describe key challenges and opportunities that can only be handled by a truly coherent coalition with shared goals, values, and ideas about how to best pursue this work. Addressing this type of cross-functional challenge in the same way other “cross-functional” challenges are typically approached is likely to create a slow-moving morass of committees and status meetings.

Third, formal structures and value-creation structures are often disconnected in traditional bureaucracies and there’s very little ability to dynamically team around new opportunities. Bureaucracies grow and ossify as the work of the organization becomes more known and the focus (perhaps rightfully!) shifts to extracting efficiency even over investigating new opportunities. In some cases, the rigid structures and policies that typify bureaucracies do make certain types of tasks and work more efficient. However, a shift in strategy inherently presupposes organizational mobility. It requires a restructuring of teams, workflows, decision rights, and mindsets toward fluidity and a willingness to handle ambiguity as a new and unknown domain is mapped. Handing a mandate of change to a bureaucracy that has been optimizing for efficiency is like expecting someone who has been training intensely to run a 100 meter sprint to run a marathon instead. The will and the motivation might be there, but the muscles and the cardiovascular ability have simply been optimized for something else.

Organizational Transformation Is Strategy Implementation

Strategic shifts are the perfect time to unlock larger organizational change — and actually require organizational change to be successful. Much of the time, organizations are simply propelled forward by inertia. The bigger and more bureaucratic an organization, the more inertia it has. It takes something special to disrupt that force and steer momentum in a new direction. A deliberate attempt to chart a new strategic path, whether organizationally or within a specific function, is precisely the type of event that can interrupt the status quo. How can this interruption be used as an opportunity to upgrade your OS, and how can this newly upgraded OS unlock the potential your strategic shift represents?

Allow teams pursuing new strategic imperatives to operate outside the usual bureaucratic environment. Strategic pivots require speed, and nothing prohibits organizational speed more than red tape. To the extent that a new strategy requires teams to do new work, try to protect those teams from the bureaucratic stranglehold that will inevitably try to bring them into the fold. Giving these teams and initiatives breathing room will not only set them up for greater success, but will also advance the cause of chipping away at the most pervasive organizational debt. Nothing shines a light on stale bureaucracy more than proof that meaningful work can happen quicker, with less pain, and without causing harm to the rest of the organization.

Use a shift in strategy as a platform for rapid and deliberate experimentation. Making room for meaningful experimentation can catalyze progress toward a new strategic direction. Rapid iteration and learning is the backbone of strategic implementation. No matter how good the thinking was that went into the articulation of a strategy, it’s impossible for it to fully predict the future. Good strategic implementation strives to validate or invalidate the assumptions upon which it’s built as quickly as possible. Pursuing the strategy then becomes a fluid and ever-evolving process that finds new opportunities that never could have been predicted when the original thinking was being done.

Start the way you intend to finish. A strategy designed to allow an organization to adapt to the market cannot be executed by an organization that cannot adapt to the strategy. Just as no organization has successfully transitioned to more agile ways of working through waterfall practices, it’s safe to surmise no organization trying to become more fit for complex and uncertain realities has done so through command-and-control, plan-and-predict, bureaucratic methods. To that end, implementation of a strategy is unlikely to be a linear process. It’ll have stops and starts, loop back on itself, and reveal things that were impossible to predict when the strategy was originally drafted. The grace and adaptability of your approach to bringing a new strategy to life will largely determine whether or not it’s successful.

A Shift From Strategy to Meta-Strategy

Disruptive reorgs, monumental pivots in strategy, and other “big moves” are signs that an organization is operating (and struggling) under a legacy operating system. Proponents of these approaches always underestimate the amount of unproductive churn they generate and overestimate how much they will fundamentally change an organization’s trajectory. Organizations that have transcended these dramatic interventions have built operating systems that allow them to be constantly sensing, responding, and experimenting with what the market is telling them. They understand that it’s not about perfect execution of a strategy, but rather the imperfect yet ever-better implementation of a meta-strategy — the ongoing care and maintenance of their evolutionary organizational operating system. They no longer need dramatic swings in strategy, because they are able to pursue opportunities at the drop of a hat and pivot away from dead-ends before they become an existential crisis. This is where true opportunity lies; this is what the best companies in the world have uncovered; and this is what you and your organization can achieve by uniting strategy implementation with holistic organizational transformation.

Sam Spurlin is a Partner at The Ready, an organizational design and transformation partner that helps you build a better way of working. We work with some of the world’s largest, oldest, and most inspiring organizations to help them remove bureaucracy and adapt to the complex world in which we all live. Learn more by subscribing to our Brave New Work podcast and Brave New Work Weekly newsletter, checking out our book, or reaching out to have a conversation about how we can help your organization evolve ways of working better suited to your current reality.

Thank you to Zoe Donaldson and Alastair Steward for their editing and feedback prowess. Any particularly cogent bits are likely covered in their fingerprints and the mistakes are purely my own.

Building a Morning Writing Routine in Real Time

I’m actively trying to build a new routine. On the first day of that new routine I did a stream of consciousness exercise to capture everything I was thinking about in that moment. I’ve decided to publish it, lightly edited, as a potentially useful glimpse into the mind of someone who is trying to deliberately build a new routine while using the self-knowledge gleaned from years of personal experimentation. The specific details of what I’m trying to do here may not be relevant to you, but the categories of reflection below may help you unlock challenges you’ve faced in your own endeavors.

Check out the entry for this experiment in my Deliberate Experimentation Dashboard for a rougher but more real-time look into how this is going, too.

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Routine as Archaeology or Creativity?

I love routine. A good routine feels like uncovering something that has always been there and building something completely new. “Uncovered” because there’s a sense of comfort and a sense of, “Ah, this is how things should’ve always been,” when you land on a routine that works but “built” because it’s very rarely something that shows up fully formed. It gets modified, torn down, rejiggered, and tweaked over time. Eventually, it solidifies into something simultaneously essential and also not part of your deliberate consciousness. Essential because its absence is keenly felt (or, more positively, doing it propels you to the next part of your day with the right mindset and the right momentum) and subconscious because it’s nearly automatic.

I have a slate of routines. Some are relatively fresh and still being built. And others have become so automatic I may have trouble noticing them as routines. Right now, as I write this, I’m trying to lay the foundation for a new routine related to writing. My hypothesis is that I can spend roughly 7:00-8:00 AM nearly every day doing some kind of writing (or writing adjacent) activity. That writing may not always look like this — a nearly stream of consciousness draft focused on getting as many words out of me as possible — but could include editing previous writing, outlining in preparation for future writing, or even doing deliberate research and note-taking.

What I’m most interested in, though, is whether I can make this 7:00-8:00 AM block something sacred.

The Mechanics of Potential Self-Sabotage

While the foundation to this routine is brand new, it’s being built in a neighborhood of much more mature routines. Its neighbors are “Wake Up at 6:00 AM” and “Read For Awhile Right After Waking Up.” These two routines have been bedrocks for as long as I can remember. In fact, “Write From 7:00-8:00” could be thought of as being built on property previously claimed by “Read For Awhile Right After Waking Up,” because “awhile” has usually included time beyond 7:00 AM. I guess that means “Read For Awhile Right After Waking Up” needs to become “Read From 6:10ish to 7:00.”

I’ve played with this routine in the past and have watched it start strong only to fade over time. The most common force that overtakes it is a sense of anxiety over what my upcoming work day entails and feeling like I need to steal time away from writing in order to be properly prepared for what’s coming up later in the day. It would be foolish of me to think this will never happen. Sometimes there’s a major meeting in the morning that requires my attention in the early morning hours in order to be adequately prepared for it. Sometimes things get overwhelming and reserving some time early in the morning to do “real work” helps restore the equilibrium I need to feel good about my job. But these can be exceptions and they don’t need to represent failure to the point of abandoning the original intention of writing for an hour in the morning.

I have worked hard to become a very productive and focused consultant. I can accomplish everything I need to accomplish during a normal 9:00ish to 5:00ish work day. I take those hours extremely seriously so that I can have this guilt free time in the morning to work on my craft. And, even more importantly, I try not to conceptualize myself as having set “work hours.” It’s easy for me to fall into a trap of thinking my job is to work a certain number of hours each week when really I need to consistently be thinking about my work as creating outcomes that matter to my clients and The Ready. Those outcomes are divorced from a set schedule. Sometimes the most impactful work I can do is take an entire afternoon “off” and think through a problem. Sometimes it’s sitting down to work through a problem after dinner. 9 to 5 is a useful default constraint. Useful in the sense that it’s what I hold very lightly as an ideal. I can transcend it when it makes sense to but otherwise it’s a good chunk of time that allows me to order my life outside of work.

I know I need to be vigilant about that part of me that thinks I need to work early in the morning to prepare for the rest of my day. I wonder if there’s any part of that drive that’s based in self-sabotage? “I can’t be a writer because I have this intense job that requires me to work a ton of hours. Oh well.” There’s probably a small part of me that subconsciously thinks this way. I know there are things I can do, though, that helps keep those thoughts at bay.

I think a lot of it actually starts the day before. When I don’t crisply end my day it can feel like I’m carrying a lot of amorphously open loops with me throughout the evening and into the next morning. Crisply ending my day means taking the ten to fifteen minutes at the end of the day to truly end the stuff I’m working on and set some intentions about when I’ll pick them up again tomorrow or later in the week. It’s about looking at my calendar for the next day or two and figuring out what I need to do to feel prepared for whatever is coming up — and when I’m going to do that preparation. When I’ve done those things my brain can let go of the anxiety that drives me to spend time in the morning making sure I’m completely and utterly prepared for the day —time that I’m trying to invest in writing.

I can also set myself up for success by doing my best to not schedule meetings early in the day. Early meetings are the #1 thing that make me feel like I need to use the time between 7:00 and 8:00 for consulting work. Anything that happens at 10:00 AM or later (or even better, after noon) makes me feel like I have time to prep starting around 9:00 AM.

What Does ‘Writing’ Even Mean, Though?

What about how to use the time itself? What am I supposed to be writing or doing during this newly sacred block of time? The simplest answer is, “Writing.” The somewhat more specific answer is, “Working on writing that will help me move my career into a more writing-centric mode.” Articles for public consumption and anything that might become a book are at the top of the prioritization list. Writing of a completely personal nature is fine, too since that writing is often the seeds that sprout into something bigger. Where it starts to get a bit more fuzzy is when thinking about the work that has to happen around writing that isn’t actually making words appear. Editing, researching, taking notes, etc. My thinking, as of right now, is that every day should consist of at least some actual writing (maybe “drafting” is a better word) and that as long as I make some net new words appear I can use some of the remaining time for editing, thinking, taking, notes, and researching. What I want to avoid, though, is spending this time reading or researching and somehow tricking myself into thinking that I’m doing what I set out to do. I could imagine spending the whole time, even the whole time for a couple days in a row, reading and taking notes on something. But it’s something I’ll need to keep an eye on because it’s a very attractive escape hatch for my particular type of brain. Writing is hard. Reading, researching, and thinking about writing is easy (and fun).

There's a bit of a wild card, here, that is also worth exploring for a moment. When I’ve done this in the past the writing I’ve focused on has been 100% focused on non-fiction. I’ve never even considered writing fiction before. For whatever reason I’m feeling the smallest of itches telling me to explore writing fiction. I don’t know where that voice is coming from but it feels like I should honor it. I have no idea what form it’s going to take but I’d be very okay if this morning writing session became dedicated (or at least partly dedicated) to figuring out what that voice wants to say. I’ve never thought of myself as a fiction writer and my gut tells me that I’d be terrible at it. I’m so goddamn literal and rational all the time. But also, life is long and my interests are varied. God knows I read a lot so why not try listening to the voice that says it wants to be a fiction writer and see if anything comes out of it? Nobody ever has to see it. Expectations can stay comfortably low and I can look at myself squarely in the mirror and say I didn’t hide from trying new things.

The Mechanics of Execution

The mechanics of this intention are interesting to me, too. I’ve already talked about the timing, 7:00-8:00 every weekday (weekends are to be determined). That’s because I’ve learned that going right from waking up to writing is really tough for me. I’ve tried that experiment and learned that my brain takes a little time to wake up and reading a book and drinking coffee for the first 30-45 minutes of the day is basically the best part of my day. In the past my brain has rebelled when I tried to make it write first thing in the day. It/I get mad about having to give up the best part of my day to do a difficult thing and eventually my willpower dries up and I’m back to not writing. So, this time around I’m trying to use this self-knowledge rather than ignore it. Starting at 7:00 gives me enough time to read and get that first cup of coffee in me.

Other mechanics to think about include what I’m actually doing the writing on and what my environment is like during the writing session. My inclination is to do the writing on my iPad rather than my laptop and external monitor. Laptop + external monitor is where I spend 95% of my normal workday. I like the idea of shifting this decidedly non-consulting activity away from the tools I used to do my regular job. My iPad can become my default writing machine and my laptop + external monitor can become my default everything else machine. I think it’s possible to build associations with different tools and environments and to that end I think I’ll try to listen to the same music every morning, too. Tycho already has very strong associations with productivity and writing in my brain, so I’m going to milk that for all it’s worth. If it’s between 7:00ish and 8:00ish and I’m writing I’ll have Tycho being piped into my ears.

One last thing to figure out, then, is how to end each session. I’m a big fan of parking on the down slope so that it’s easy to pick up where I left off in the following session. The literal way to do that is to stop in the middle of a sen…

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A Goodbye Note to Twitter

I’ve read a lot of “goodbye Twitter” articles over the past few weeks. They almost always seem to start with a litany of negative symptoms that the author thinks Twitter is causing. I understand the inclination — it’s easy to identify the things that aren’t going well. The things that don’t feel right. It’s exciting to think about these burdens being lifted from your shoulders.

I’ve noticed that many of these missives end with some sort of admission that the author has either come back to the service (while promising that their eyes have been opened to the reality of the situation and this time they won’t become addicted) or never really left at all. Something about the standard approach to leaving social media behind doesn’t seem to really do the trick.

So, I’m going to try a different tack with this article. Let’s start with trying to better understand what I’m excited to be moving toward -- the future that ideally becomes more attainable by stepping away from Twitter.

Channeling creative energy into larger and more complex outputs

For someone with creative ambitions, Twitter seems uniquely constructed to undermine me. The development of an idea and the steady chipping away at it, is something that takes time and patience and an extremely high boredom threshold. I’ve found some of my most prolific bursts of creativity have come during times when I was experimenting with removing Twitter from my life. Without Twitter, the motivational and creative steam I need to run the Industrial Era steel mill that is my creative process is allowed to build and build and build. Twitter is a vent that lets that steam escape at periodic intervals. If I don’t let it build to the level where I feel like I have to do something creative or else something bad is going to happen to the intricate workings of my factory-brain then I have a tendency to make nothing other than tweets. Some people have a way of making tweets art. My tweets are not art. My tweets are my procrastination made visible.

Let me articulate it more simply: creative, professional, and personal endeavors that are likely to involve frustration and a willingness to sit with boredom are interesting to me because I don’t think I’ve made very many of those things. Twitter is too easy a creative outlet and I think it undermines my ability to do cooler stuff than I currently do. If I remove this extremely convenient  escape hatch from my range of options, might I have an easier time sticking with difficult things? It’s not guaranteed, but I think it gives me much more of a fighting chance.

MORE: Better, longer, and more complex writing on SamSpurlin.com and TheReady.com, more consistent and interesting issues of The Deliberate, exploring freelance writing opportunities, exploring writing a book, etc.

LESS: Having a halfway decent idea and throwing it on Twitter to see what people think, with the vague idea of turning it into an article, only to never touch it again. Tricking myself that writing a couple pithy tweets is the same thing as writing.

Channeling curiosity by consuming longer, more complex and more nuanced information

I love the feeling of consuming news essentially as it’s happening. It feels like I’m there. Like I’m in the mix and seeing what’s happening in real time. It’s almost like watching a movie or playing a video game. I’m a scraggly barn cat getting squirt with milk right from the cow’s udder. 

And holy shit is that an unwholesome way to consume news.

Getting news from Twitter is like how I imagine kitesurfing works: you become intimately familiar with the moment-to-moment reality of the surface of the water because every little wave and updraft has a visible impact on your ability to stay upright. It’s what allows you to keep looking like a supremely cool dude catching some righteous waves and not getting a face full of surf. Just navigating that environment likely takes every bit of skill and attention that you have and it can seem like that’s what the whole ocean is. It’s all consuming and it’s fun.

I don’t know that news should be all consuming and I’m pretty sure it probably shouldn’t be fun the way kitesurfing is (presumably) fun. If a kite surfer is a master of the intimate surface, I’m interested in becoming whatever it is that cares more about what’s going on far below the surface. A submariner? A whale? What’s going on down there? How is it affecting what’s going on up at the surface? (Why would I pick an aquatic metaphor when I grew up in the Midwest?)

MORE: Reading long magazine and journal articles, newspapers, books, and other sources of information that aren’t ripped from the breaking news headlines.

LESS: Trusting algorithms to put the “right” stuff in front of me, staying extremely up to date on everything. Feeling like knowing what is happening is the same thing as understanding why something is happening.

The opportunity to be more deliberate in refilling my creative and inspirational reservoirs

There’s a whole world of interesting, inspiring and thought-provoking stuff out there that I don’t think I’m doing a very good job exploring because “the algorithm” doesn’t surface it to me. The algorithm is great at figuring out what it thinks I’ll find interesting within the bubble of the people and topics I already follow or have expressed interest in. But that’s not how I want to explore the world. I want to explore things that I’m unlikely to find interesting. I want to choose to go this way and not that way. I want the search for inspiration and beauty and art to be a vigorously proactive exploration, not delivered to me as some kind of passive buffet of lukewarm things I’ve kind of liked before.

MORE: Deliberately choosing fiction, movies, music, and other art. Asking people for recommendations. Aimless wandering. Following my nose.

LESS: Mindless consumption of the admittedly cool and mostly unsurprising stuff Twitter likes to show me.

Untangling myself from the need for validation from others

Twitter pushes some very primal and maladaptive buttons in my brain. I’m a huge sucker for validation from others. Without making this a quasi-therapy session, let’s just say that I’ve never really felt like I belong much of anywhere. Never quite good enough, or with the right qualifications, or the right experiences to really be part of the in group. Classic Impostor Syndrome stuff, I know. One way I’ve learned to calm down that voice in my head that tells me I’m not good enough is to collect words of affirmation from people I admire. Or, now that we’re in the social media age, Likes and Retweets and Mentions from people I admire — which are the digital equivalent of pats on the head.

That is no way to live. I’m tired of tweeting something and then watching my notifications anxiously while I see who did or didn’t throw me some kind of digital reward. I’m tired of being a pigeon pecking a lever and waiting for food to come out at random intervals.

It’s time to learn how to not give a shit (or at least less of a shit) about what people think. It’s time to learn to give myself the affirmation that Twitter makes far too easy to rely on others to provide.

MORE: Developing my own sense of taste, exploring unpopular ideas without fear of social ramifications.

LESS: Hoping the right people see my stuff and think it’s good. Trying to be clever in public.

Giving myself space to explore nuance

I’m not one to decry “cancel culture.” In most cases, cancel culture is just a stupid way of saying “having to face the consequences of acting shitty.” But I’ve seen enough Twitter mobs to know that they don’t always get it right. I’ve seen what happens when any sense of nuance gets destroyed with the wrong thing going viral.

A couple weeks ago a podcaster and musician I’ve followed for literally over a decade became a meme because of a series of ill-advised tweets. He became “Bean Dad.” To the mob that formed, his series of tweets became evidence that he was a child abuser and anti-Semite. Anyone who has listened to his multiple podcasts every week for years knew this was not true. We had the context of who he is. His struggles and triumphs with mental health. The obvious pride and joy he has at being a father. And, yes, how being a bit of a dick is part of his brand. None of that nuance matters, though, when you have a bad day, tweet something stupid, and the mob wakes up. 

Being a surly person is not generally part of my brand. I’m not super sarcastic and I generally don’t try to make myself stand out on Twitter by being shocking in any way. But I do have bad days. I do make lapses in judgement. I am not perfect. 

Twitter is a nuance destruction machine. I like nuance. I don’t know that I’m particularly good at it, but it seems like the type of thing worth getting better at navigating. Being nuanced in my writing and thinking. Being nuanced in understanding what others are saying and arguing. I think the world would be a better place if we spent less time speaking or thinking in polar dichotomies. Nuance requires room to breathe and a platform where brevity is its calling card is not particularly well-suited to nurture particularly nuanced takes on just about anything. At the very least, if I want to practice being more nuanced then I need a place to do it… and Twitter ain’t it.

MORE: Exploring the contours, depths, and jagged edges of what’s going on in the world. More peace of mind knowing I’m not one poorly worded or ill-advised joke tweet away from having my professional life upended.

LESS: Certainty in, well, everything.

Some Pertinent Questions

I’ve been chipping away at this article for days, making it longer and longer, rewriting and rewriting, because I think part of me is afraid that once I finish it I’ll need to go ahead and pull the plug. So, in the spirit of a.) capturing those fears in an effort to allay them and b.) doing so quickly, I’m going to knock this next section out FAQ-style.

Aren’t you going to feel isolated?

Maybe! But I’m going to remember that I have lots and lots of people who I could text, email, or gasp call. I’m also going to keep my Open Office Hours going and I’m known to plaster my email all over the place, so I have a feeling I won’t be hurting for human interaction.

Aren’t you shooting your future professional endeavors in the foot?

Maybe! I guess I won’t necessarily be known as a quippy and fun organization design thinker/consultant on Twitter. Luckily, even though it’s easy to think that’s a large part of my job, it turns out it really isn’t. In fact, trading Twitter time for writing time (or speaking time or getting better at my craft time or even just true rejuvenation time) will probably do much more for my professional endeavors than maintaining a fun Twitter feed.

Are you going to be worse at your job?

Maybe! I used to find lots of interesting articles related to organizations and organization design in my Twitter timeline. Luckily, there are lots of other places to find good things to read and reading fewer things deeper is probably good for me anyway.

Aren’t you bailing on the actual hard thing (learning how to use social media with moderation)?

Maybe! I agree that if I truly had mastery over my attention I probably wouldn’t write a multi-thousand word article about leaving Twitter. I just... wouldn’t ever open the app. Alas, it turns out I am mostly human and I have the foibles and weaknesses of anyone who has struggled with curtailing a pleasurable yet harmful behavior. I’ve learned enough about myself through my personal experiments to know I’m a cold turkey kind of guy.

What will you do when you want to have a short break? When you’re waiting in line for something? After dinner when you just want to kill some time before bed?

I don’t know! Probably be bored some, or even most, of the time. It’s probably going to suck at first but I’m guessing it will suck less over time. I’m excited to find out.

You think you’re better than me?

God, no.

Let’s Wrap This Thing Up

I haven’t come to this decision lightly. I’ve been making it for the past couple years... and then all at once. I’ve experimented with removing Twitter and other social media from my life for varying lengths of time. As anyone who I’ve followed for a long time knows, I unfollow and re-follow people multiple times a year as I go through phases of trying out new (coping) strategies. What has always united these experiments is that I always felt good while I did them. I always felt calmer and happier. I would write more. I would read more. And then, inevitably, I’d have a down evening or feel like I earned the ability to kill some time and the next thing I knew I’d be re-downloading the apps and re-following the usual suspects and without much of a deliberate decision I would have slid back into my status quo. And things would be fine for awhile! I would convince myself that using this tool was actually super important and useful. This time would be different! 

And the discomfort and disquiet would slowly grow until I did another experiment. And the cycle would continue.

No more. No more cycle. Time to chart a new path.

Goodbye!

P.S. There are still many ways to connect with me if you’re so inclined. My email is sam@samspurlin.com and I legitimately like receiving email from strangers. I literally have a link where you can sign up to have an honest to god conversation with me about literally anything right here. I also write here at SamSpurlin.com and I have a newsletter called The Deliberate and I have a podcast called Fields of Work. So, I’m around. Say hi.